I feel bad

Okay, I will post about my Raya experience after this. Right now, I really need to share this. 

So, it was true that he got a U for the subject because he entered the class just now. I was...I don't know how should I describe this feeling but I was glad...? That is why I feel really bad right now. I was actually happy that he didn't pass the subject. He looked kind of disappointed and depressed when I saw him this morning. Obviously, he is not happy with his result. And since he can't drop the subject so he didn't get an additional PS period.

I actually feel very guilty for being happy over his bad result. I know I shouldn't! But the thought of still being able to see him in class made me so happy. I feel so bad that I couldn't even look at him in the face during the class earlier. What should I do?

Yes, it looks like I still have a mini crush on him. But as I said in my previous posts, he is nice to everyone so...I shouldn't put my hopes high. I think I'm just gonna watch him for a far or just act like how I normally act around him before I realized that I like him. And he mustn't know about my feeling toward him because that would make our relationship more awkward than now. Honestly, I feel comfortable already with just being a classmate of him. It's enough. And I'm not hoping for anything. At all. Plus, it is just a mini crush anyway.

And...it's no time to think about that kind of things! Now, now, now! I need to concentrate on my studies and aim for an excellent result for the coming November AS/A2 examination! Yosh! Make your own manipulation and success! That is what my senior from my martial art class, Ryoshi Ryu once said to me. Oh, talking about him, I wonder how is he doing right now. Haven't seen him for a while now. Geez, every time I recall back that old times, I feel like laughing out loud.

Let me share this with you guys. Actually, I was in love with Ryu (well, I thought I was) but then it only lasted for not more than a year. And it turned out to be just a mini crush. Exactly how I am feeling toward Ikki-san right now. When I first know Ryu from FaceBook, I found out that he was someone so different than others and because of our mutual interest which is Japan, we became close and talked to each other a lot. And then, he suddenly invited to join the martial art class that he was in and I did. That was how I found myself falling for him.

But as I said, that feeling didn't stay that long and now it is already completely disappeared! Hahaha. After awhile, I realized that he is not like what I thought. Not my type at all.

So the point here is, I really am a girl that can easily fall for a guy xD And then gradually, that feeling, without me realizing it would be gone! All of sudden! Hahaha. So same can be applied to the feeling I'm having toward Ikki-san right now. It came all of sudden just because he treated me so nicely and I'm sure, soon, it will be gone without me realizing it myself.

I should stop talking about this already! Enough! Enough! Hahah xD  I will share my Raya experience later xD Jyaa!

- Miki Ariake

AS RESULT!!

Hello people! xD Long time no see. School holiday is already ended and this week, we are back in school. Actually today I was planning to post about my Raya experience for this year but something more important came out today. Yes! AS June exam result just came out! Actually they came out yesterday but due to some incidents, I didn't receive mine. So, this morning I went to school with my doki-doki heart and checked it out on the notice board near the exam section! To my surprised I passed all the four subjects including English AS! But the grades I achieved aren't that good.

I got a C for my History. Well, I already expected that so it no surprised but I was nervous to face my lecturer because she always put high expectation on me. After I sat for the exam last time, she was like, "Miki will pass the paper. Surely she will get an A or at least a B". However, I got a C and in my class C is the highest already. I think there are 3 students who C in my History class. I did see my teacher that morning and thank God, she was in a good mood. She even congratulated me despite my not-so-satisfying grade.

For Geography, I got a C as well. Well, it was really a surprise. I thought I would only at least get a D but then, I got a C! In my class, most of the students got C as well. About 8 students, I think. And there are 4 students in my class that got A! Those four students are undoubtedly 'crazy' but my lecturer was so happy and proud since only four students got A in the school and all the As are from his class. I'm happy for him as well.

Then! For Sociology, I got D! This is really...yeah, I'm not satisfied with my grade for Sociology. My lecturer was expecting me to get a B but I...didn't. I'm so sorry for disappointing you, sir. It's not like I didn't put any effort, I did my best! REALLY! But maybe, something went wrong and I ended up with a D. Again, I'm sorry, sir.

Okay, English AS is the most surprising for me. I didn't expect I would get a D! I passed and it is a miracle!! But, a D is not enough to drop the subject. So, I will still have to come to EAS classes until the end of this year. Haru-chan got a C but for some reasons, she didn't drop the subject. And don't ask me why, because I don't know. Plus, she said it wasn't for me. Well, I am grateful that she decided to not drop EAS. If she leaves, I will be left alone. You know, I only close with Haru-chan in the class.

So, that's it. I got C, C, D and D. Hmm, not bad, huh? At least, there is no U! But, I'm not satisfied at all. I'm gonna take the exam again end of this year. And my target is A, A, A and...well maybe C (EAS)?

I'm not sure if I heard this right, but they said Ikki-san got a C for English AS, so he can drop the subject if he wants to. When I heard it, I don't know why but my heart sank. So, before leaving the school, I went to the notice board again and looked for his name. And...okay, maybe there are something wrong with my eyes but I saw a U! Not sure if it was just my imagination or what...but he got a U for the subject. Well, something must be wrong with my eyes. But if really he got a U, then that means, I will still be seeing him in class.

*sigh* I think I still have a mini crush on him. Just a mini crush, I'm sure.

Okay, enough with AS result! Today, me and a classmate from my History class went to Radio Television Brunei (RTB) with our History lecturer to witness a Pidato (I don't know what it called in English) competition between schools in my country. We left the school at around 8 am and came back at 11:50 -something- am. So, I missed my Sociology and EAS class. Well, there is not much to talk about what we did there because we were just sitting and watching the competition, silently. For me, it was extremely boring but to be able to skip classes for the whole morning was great.

(The view from our seats)

(Just me and that classmate from History class)

Before put an end to this post, I have something to say. To Saku (IF you are reading this), I always read whatever you posted on your blog. Don't worry. There IS someone reading. I wanted to comment on some of the posts but I don't know where to click. I think you disabled the comment? Hmm.

Okay, I will post about my Raya (plus awesome moments with Saku-chan) experience in my next post. IF. I'm not lazy xD

That's all for now.

- Miki Ariake

Film shooting at Naru-baka's place

Yesterday, I went to Naru-baka's place together with my little sister. The plan is to shoot a music video parody of Utada Hikaru's "Come Back To Me" but because we didn't have enough people so we changed the plan. And we did a short comedy skit. I don't know where the idea came from but it was about the Olympics Games. Hahahahaha. There were four scenes altogether. The first scene already took lotsa time! Haha. Too many bloopers. The other scenes were done outside the house and it was raining. I think I caught a cold. I keep sneezing since I came back from Naru-baka's house.

We finished shooting all the scenes just on time before 'sungkai'. Oh yes, I had my sungkai there. It was awkward because it was my first time. We also played fireworks after that. Honestly...I don't like fireworks. Hahaha. I'm scared of the sparks but it was fun watching them playing.

Well, overall, it was fun and it would be great if Suki-chan and Fumi-chan were able to join us. Too bad they were busy preparing for the soon coming festive month. I think I laughed a lot that my throat is hurting right now, plus the cold... Gonna stay in bed the whole day today, I guess.

My father picked me and my sister up at around 9 pm and we went straight to my ma's work place to fetch her. Then we went to buy KFC! Yum yum! It was yummy and super spicy!!

By the way, it is 1:24 am right now :D I haven't sleep yet because I was watching Ikemen Desu Ne with my siblings just now (My grandma just bought a new DVD player!) Okay, I need to sleep now. Or I will be sleepy for the rest of the day...

Achoooo!!! Oyasuminasai...

- Miki Ariake

Trying out some new clothes

After having fun playing with my cousins and my grandmother's sister's house the other day, my father brought us to shop for some new clothes!! xD We bought a lot!! Hehehe. And father paid for everything. So yesterday morning, me and lil sis tried some of the new clothes and posed like models! xD Anyway...please do ignore the UGLY background :P

How do I look? :P Girly enough? No? I tried my best you know! Actually, to be honest, that is not my style at all. I prefer boyish kind of fashion. Hahaha xD I just realized that my hair is already long~ Hmm... Okay, that's all for now~!!!

- Miki Ariake

Just a random post :D

Off to my grandmother's sister's house!! Yay!! We are going to gather with all our cousins!!

Bye bye!

- Miki Ariake

Sungkai-out with father and siblings

Yesterday was the pay day for my father and he was in a good mood. So, instead of having our sungkai at home, he brought us to a restaurant. My mother didn't come with us since she was at work until 9 pm and Keii wasn't at home that time. So, it was only me, father, my two little brothers and my lil sis.

Father allowed us to order whatever we want! xD And what funny was that all of us ordered the same thing! Hahaha. Ayam penyet and juice! The restaurant was so crowded and I pity the workers there. Because there was no buffet so they were busy running here and there taking orders and delivering orders to the customers. And one of them also got scolded by a customer because late in delivering her orders. Poor that woman.

Our 'ayam penyet' arrived 15 minutes late but it was okay since the restaurant provided free water and fruits for us while waiting for our orders. Their service is really good. I ate till I was full! It was super delicious! And I could felt the freshness of the apple juice as I drank it.

Having a sungkai-out with my father and siblings was fun! Well, it would be better if the family is complete with my mother and...Keii. But what can we do, right? Hehehe. Today's sungkai the family will be complete! Because mother will join us having sungkai at my grandmother's sister's house! With all my cousins! Haven't seen them for awhile now.

- Miki Ariake

Artemis Fowl is a TRUE HERO.

Few days ago, on 11th August 2012, I went to the book store to look for a good book to read during the holiday. I don't usually read novels so I'm not good in choosing what book is good to read. I spent like an hour wandering in the book store. Still, I couldn't find any that suits my taste. So, I gave up and left the book store but then, I don't know why but I suddenly felt like I should go and check again. Acting according to my feeling, I entered the book store once again. And just like what I did before, I wandered around... until I saw something 'shining' at one of the books shelf. I approached that something and my eyes widened! 

ARTEMIS FOWL and THE LAST GUARDIAN!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes! The 8th book of the Artemis Fowl series that just got released last month! LAST MONTH!! I never thought it would arrive in Brunei this fast so I didn't expect to see it there! I love Artemis Fowl so much. I've read the first until seventh books and was waiting for the eighth book. So, without thinking any further, I grabbed the book and brought in to the cashier counter. YES! I BOUGHT Artemis Fowl and The Last Guardian!!! It was so expensive! I spent $30.80 for that one book (Lucky for me, I still had some money left from Yuto's birthday celebration on the day before). Well, I don't care as long as I can read the book! I was so happy and couldn't wait to read it.

I started reading the book on the next day and the first chapter of the book already made me go DOKI-DOKI! Artemis Fowl is my most favourite book character ever! He is so cool and really a genius! I still remembered when I read the first book, he was still 11 year old and now he already reached fifteen! I can imagine him growing from a cute lil boy into a handsome young man. His personality changed a lot as well. He became more like a normal teenage boy rather than just a criminal mastermind. He got friends now and learned to care about the people around him more. He also had become a caring and loving big brother towards his two four year old little brothers. From the first until the eighth book, he really changed a lot but still... a super genius (Oh no, I feel like crying...)

I finished Artemis Fowl and The Last Guardian last night. It was really another awesome work by Eion Colfer. He is the best author ever! I cried reading this eighth book of Artemis Fowl series. Artemis's action at the end was so heroic! He... he... just to save the people...he... okay. I will stop there. I don't want to give any spoiler to those who haven't read the book yet. But one thing for sure, Artemis Fowl is a TRUE HERO. I'm so touched by his decision tho I am really against it!

I can't believe Artemis Fowl series is over now. That was the last book, right? I really wish there will be the ninth book in the future. I'm sure gonna miss the series so much after this. I will definitely miss Artemis, Holly, Butler, Foaly, Mulch, the twins Myles and Beckett, Juliet, Opal, and all the characters in the series. I will miss you all!!!!!!

And one last message,

I LOVE YOU, ARTY.

- Miki Ariake

Family problem...

The situation within my family was really bad this past few days. It has never been this bad before. The only one should be blamed for this is my younger brother, Keii. He is always the one that brings chaos to the family. He always leave the house without informing my parents first then only come back after weeks. 

My father is okay if his children leave the house and come back on the same day. He doesn't like his children sleep outside unless we inform him first so that he knows where and when will we come back. But Keii, he never told my parents where he is heading to or where he is sleeping over at. NEVER at all. Sometime, he didn't even come home after 3 weeks and that makes my father really mad. It is okay if he calls home and tell my parents that he would not be coming home but he didn't! Acting like an adult when he is still seventeen!

He failed his O-level exam and so he couldn't continue his study to 6th form. I told him to repeat a year and take the exam again but refused to do so. So he had to choice but to apply at private college. We all knows that private college required a large amount of money for the fees, right? But, that's not a problem since our king is kind enough to provide scholarships for those who wants to continue their study at private college. H got accepted to the college and the only thing left is to apply for the scholarship.

But, he didn't come home for a long time! My parents had to call him so many times and asked him to come home so that he could start preparing for applying the scholarship. He did come home after my parents called him but left on the same day! And didn't come home since then. The registration for the scholarship is going to be closed in few more days. So, my parents were panicking since Keii hadn't even started to fill in the form and they couldn't contact him at all! We didn't even know where he was!

On Monday, I was awoke by a loud noise from my parents' room. My father was shouting in anger at my mother. I could hear him saying, "I DON'T CARE ABOUT HIM ANYMORE! I DON'T HAVE A SON LIKE HIM! I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH HIM! YES! I'M NOT A GOOD FATHER!! I DON'T CARE! I DON'T CARE! CAN JUST LET ME DIE!"

Then I heard my mother crying as she scolded my father. What happened that morning was my mother asked my father to look for Keii to settle his scholarship thingy. The thing is my father already gave up about Keii who didn't come home even after he told him to. He said, "Keii don't even care about his future then why should we care!?"

I understand my father's feeling very well. He cares a lot about Keii's future. He did so many things so that Keii would be able to continue his studies. But Keii don't. Yes, he did say that he wants to continue studying but he never take it seriously. 

That morning, I just locked myself in room as I listened to my father and my mother arguing with each other about Keii. I heard my father punching and kicking the wall and stuffs. It really scared me because father never been that angry before. My father is a very kind man and always smiling no matter what happens. Only that morning, he was not like himself at all. I was scared that I cried alone in my room.

My mother was mad so she left the house and took the bus to her work place while my father locked himself inside the room. I only stepped outside my room when there was no more sound coming from the room next door. I went down and found Keii was filling in the scholarship form. I really felt like punching him straight on his face but that would only make the situation worse so I calmed myself. My little sister was scared as well that as soon as she saw me, she quickly hugged me and told everything to me.

My father didn't left his room. I was so worried as it was already around 12 noon. I tried to have a peek inside the room but the door was locked from the inside. Keii left the house again that evening saying that he was going to submit the form.

Almost 2 pm, my father was still in his room. Then, I was surprised when my mother appeared at the front door. She said she was worried so she told her boss that she needed to leave early. She went to knock on the door but my father didn't open it. So my mother just let him be, thinking that he needed time to be alone.

Naru-baka came over that day. Well, she didn't know what was going on and with her there, I felt a lot better. We played and had fun. Until, we heard my father shouting at my mother again downstairs. So, I told her what actually happened that morning. Then, silence followed afterwards and my lil sister told me that my parents left the house to buy some foods for sungkai that day.

When my parents weren't at home, I had a big fight with my grandmother. She was so annoying. She loves Keii so much that she defended Keii a lot and she was really getting on my nerves when she said that MY FATHER was the one at fault! That's not true! We all know it was Keii's fault! If only he listened to my father, this kind of thing wouldn't happen. My grandma spoilt him too much. She always gives him money and stuffs! That is why Keii always leave home. He has money! 

I left my grandmother cried in my room after the fight as I ran outside the house, crying as well. I hate hurting my grandmother but she was just too much already. Putting all the blame on my father when Keii was the one at fault. I went to the place where I always go when I am sad and wanting to have time alone. Naru-baka and my little sister followed me there. Naru-baka didn't say anything but quietly sitting next to me, accompanying me. We stayed there for awhile and when I felt a bit better, we headed back home.

Arriving at home, my mother was waiting for us at the door. I thought she was gonna scold me but she was worried about me instead. It seemed like she thought I ran away from home. She even called my friend to ask where I was. 

Then the rest of the day was just normal. My parents seemed like they realized that everything that happened gave an impact to my emotion. So, they brought me out, asked me what I wanted and bought them for me. Naru-baka had her sungkai at my house that night. 

Naru-baka, thanks a lot. I'm sorry that everything happened when you were in my house. But I'm glad that you were there. Thanks...

Yesterday, Keii went to my mother's work place and told her that he was sorry... He was rejected and didn't get the scholarship because he was late in submitting the form. My father said he doesn't want to have anything to do with him so now it's all up to Keii on what he is going to do next. Serves you right.

- Miki Ariake

The DREAM...

As promised, I went to Saku-chan's place yesterday and had my 'sungkai' there :D It was fun!! So many foods!! Hahaha. And Saku-chan talked a lot about her family to me. I'm happy that she's willing to share it with me. I understand her family situation tho I can't say that I'm fully understand. 

We also talked about Hey!Say!JUMP and the fandom stuffs :D About two years ago, we made a contract Both of us. And we signed it. We listed down the things that we want to do once we get to Japan. 

#1 - Go to Hey!Say!JUMP concert

• Buy HSJ's T-shirt
• Get FREE backstage pass
• Meet Chinen Yuri (Saku-chan's wish: Get phone number/skype/take a picture of me kissing Chinen Yuri's cheek)
• Meet Nakajima Yuto. Try being friends. (Ask him to bring Ren to his place to meet his otouto)
• Get HSJ souvenirs for Suki-chan and Nina and Ai-chan and Emiko and Ema
• Get original signed DVDs/Autograph/posters (of course us in it!)

#2 - Let's meet Johnny-san (JE president)

• Ren wants to complain about BI Shadow (But there's no need for this now since Fuma and Kento already debuted as Sexy Zone)
• Complain about Nakayama Yuma (Also no need for this anymore. I already fell in love with him)
• Complain why Akanishi Jin is in SOLO (No need! I know the reasons already. Haha)
• Lastly, say thank you for forming Hey!Say!JUMP

#3 - Saku-chan wants to go for a dip in an ocean

#4 - We would like to try loads of Japanese food (Especially Takoyaki!)

#5 - Cosplaying for a day

#6 - Saku-chan wants to meet KHR! 

• Mukuro-sama! (Toshinobu Iida)
• Hibari-san! (Takashi Kondo)
• Hopefully REBOCON still continues so we could go see the concert

#7 - Go on a fully date with HSJ! (If that possible! Hahah)

#8 - Go to Tokyo Disneyland

#9 - Go and have experience in a HOST CLUB/ MAID CAFE (I'm so looking forward to this <3)

#10 - SHOPPING TILL SAKU-CHAN DROPS!

* RULES

• Try to collect as much money as possible within 3-4 years!!!
• By the age of 21 years old, gather at Ren's place (on 12/12/2013)
• Preferable attend the HSJ concert during summer time
• But if desperate there's no, I repeat NO tickets by that time, then can go for winter concert/fall concert/any other concert
• Try to obey the following rules!

That is the contract that we signed about 2 years ago. Hahaha. I still keep it nicely in a file. Hopefully, our wishes will come true! Hahaha. 

Yesterday, while at Saku-chan's place, we also talked about Haru-chan a little! Hehe. 

Lastly, thank you so much, Saku-chan for having me there yesterday <3 I love you!

- Miki Ariake

Celebrating Yuto's birthday with the others :D

As I already mentioned in my previous post (or did I not?) that I was going to celebrate Yuto's birthday with my friends, as well as having 'sungkai' together with them at Aiko Sushi. Too bad that day Aiko Sushi was already fully booked so we had no choice but to change the venue to WYWY restaurant (closer to my house <3). Actually I asked Suki-chan to book like 2 days earlier but she didn't. But then, WYWY restaurant is not that bad, closer to where I live and CHEAPER.

That morning was so hectic. I told Suki-chan to just book 12 seats at the WYWY and she did but I had to call and text the others to inform the new location for the 'sungkai'. I'm so happy that Deiya-san was still willing to come! Ema had to cancel because WYWY is too far from where she lives and so her father didn't allow her to go. Too bad. I really wanted her to come actually because I was planning on buying her a surprise birthday cake since on 8th August was her birthday!

Happy belated 19th birthday, Ema !

Suki-chan booked 12 seats but only 10 (including me) were able to come. It's okay! I love 10, the magic number <3

Yushika (one of my closest friends from high school) came to my house at around 3 pm that day because she was going to WYWY on my car. Because it was still early and my father wasn't at home that time, I showed Yushika a video of Kis-My-Ft2! For your information, that girl really a big fan of Kisumai after being influenced by her sister. When she watched the video, she looked so happy! Hahaha.

My father came home from...I don't know where...very late! So I was worried because I already promised Saku-chan and Haru-chan that I would pick them up at around 4 pm but my father arrived home at 4:30 pm!  I was supposed to pick up Haru-chan first but I was worried about Saku-chan so I asked my father to pick her up first and I picked up Haru-chan last. Sorry, Haru-chan!

We arrived at WYWY kinda late. Suki-chan, Deiya-san, Fumi-chan and Naru-baka were already waiting for us there. And also Hana! My close friend from high school that just came back from UK few weeks ago! Man, I'm so happy to meet her again!! She bought me something from UK and it was... DUET MAGAZINE with SEXY ZONE as the front cover! I'M SO HAPPY! It was Yuto's birthday but I was one getting the present. Hahah. Well, Yuto's birthday IS my birthday :P And my friends even greeted me a happy birthday, ya know!

The tables were separated from each other so we had to sit separately :( I was sitting at the same table with Suki-chan, Deiya-san and Miharu-chan. Saku-chan was with Hana, Yushika and Haru-chan while Naru-baka was with Fumi-chan! When it was about 'sungkai' time, my table and Naru-baka's table went to get the food first. MAN! It was a long queue! 

The foods were okay to me :D with Tom Yam soup! I ate until I was full that night! While eating, we were happily chatting and joking with each other. I laughed a lot. It was fun! And I think I talked too much... Sorry everyone if I accidentally said or did something that hurt you or whatever... 

Because Hana needed to leave early so we all took a picture together as a memory.

From right to left: Naru-baka, Fumi-chan, Suki-chan, Miharu-chan, Deiya-san, Me, Haru-chan, Hana and Yushika

Saku-chan wasn't in the picture because she was the one taking the picture. Actually I wanted everyone to be in there but...one of us had to sacrifice herself and became the photographer. Gomen ne, Saku-chan *bows*

I still can't believe that day ended quite fast and we had to separate. Hana was the first to leave, followed by Haru-chan and Saku-chan. Naru-baka, Fumi-chan, Yushika and Miharu-chan went home in my car that night (Yes, we had to squeeeeeeeeeeeezeeee!) :P Suki-chan and Deiya-san were the last to leave.

Meeting Hana again after a long time was so meaningful to me. She is really a great friend! One of the friends that I always expressed my feeling to when I was in high school. She knows most of my secrets. I hope to see her again soon before she goes back to UK.  

Haru-chan! Thank you so much for coming. I really appreciate it! It was funny that you and Yushika share the same opinion about Hey!Say!JUMP's Yabu Kota :P Haru-chan, Yushika, I know you guys dislike him because he is close to Yaotome Hikaru. They are just friends even though the rest of the members call them Mama and Papa. Hahaha. Yushika also, thank you so much for coming!

Saku-chan, your presence that day was really important to me! I'm happy that you made it. I thought you wouldn't come but when I received your text the other day, I was really happy. Having you there really made my day . I'm sorry if I annoyed you or anything... I hope you enjoyed yourself as much I was enjoying myself.

Fumi-chan, I'm sorry I didn't get to really talk to you that night but I'm so glad that you came as well! <3 I hope you did eat a lot. Hahaha. You are too skinny! Eat more, my dear! See you again when school reopens and I will give a feet massage for two minutes :P

Naru-baka, thanks for coming! I will see you again on Monday, right? :P Then we will just talk on that day. I'm happy that you were able to come! Thanks xD

Deiya-san...I'm sorry for the sudden change of plan! But still you managed to come. I'm so happy! Thanks a lot! I'm sorry if I talked a lot. Heheh. Oh ya, please forgive Haru-chan for saying you're old. Hahaha xD

Miharu-chan, I don't know what to say to you :P You were just there to eat! Hahaha. Thanks for coming along :P

Suki-chan, thanks for everything! I'm sorry for troubling you with all the 'booking mission' and stuffs... Thanks for coming! It was fun having you there! You know how important your presence was for me, right? I LOVE YOU!

Minna, I love you girls so much! <3 That day will always stay in my memory, never forgotten. Fun moments with friends are really the best moments in life! <3 Arigatou!

DUET magazine I got from Hana as a present on Yuto's birthday! SEXY ZONE on the front cover!! <3 

Inside the magazine is a GIANT Hey!Say!JUMP poster! I kyaa-ed when I saw this!

And...a GIANT Bakaleya's casts poster!! KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA~!! Hana, this is really the best gift I've ever received...so far! Thanks a lot! I'm glad that I have you as my friend. I love you!!

Today, I'm going to have my 'sungkai' at Saku-chan's place. Hmm, should I come early? She seems like she really needs me to be there. I will just text her later! xD NO PROBLEM! <3

- Miki Ariake

Dear Love...

<3 10^th August 2012 <3

It’s already passed 12 am in Japan, so HAPPY 19^th BIRTHDAY to my beloved Nakajima Yuto. Dear Yuto, I…I seriously have no idea on what to say. This day is a very special day for me because it’s your birthday, Yuto. You are one of the most important people that I love the most in my life. It’s true that I’m just a fan and obviously, you don’t know anything about me. But, you should know how much you have changed my life already. You are my inspiration. You are my source of power and smile. You changed me, Yuto. About 4 years and few months ago, when I first saw you, you struck me with your smile. I fell in love with you, immediately. Since that day, my love for you keeps growing bigger and bigger, stronger and stronger. Now, the love I have for you is 100x larger than when I first saw you.

Not mine! Got this from a page on FB

I know, people might laugh at me saying, “You love him that much but he doesn’t even know if you’re exist or not. What’s the point?” Fine, they can laugh as much as they want. I don’t care. They don’t understand anything. Even I myself, I admit, don’t even understand. This is my first time ever to fall in love this deep with someone that doesn’t even know me, someone that lives so far away from me, an idol. Nakajima Yuto, I keep asking myself, what do I see in you? My answer is always, “I don’t know” I just love you, without any reasons. I love you, because you are you.

Credit to the owner. Not mine!

In this world, I’m sure that I’m not the only girl who keeps this strong feeling for you. There are a lot more all around the world. Maybe, millions of them. I’m not the only one. I know that fact very well. That’s why I love you without hoping for any payback. Among the millions of girls, only one of us that God has created for you.

One.

Credit to the rightful owner. Not mine!

And I’m sure, it can’t be me. It’s not me, obviously. Who am I? I’m just a girl who comes from a completely different world from you. I’m nothing compares to the others. Even if you know me, you won’t even look at me. That is a fact that I must always keep in my mind so I won’t get hurt in the end.

Credit to the rightful owner. Not mine!

Whoever that Lucky Girl is, I’m sure she is the best for you. So, whoever you are going to choose, I will always support and wish for the best for you. Until the end, my support will always be with you.

Credit to the rightful owner. Not mine!

Dear Yuto, Kikuchi Fuma has stolen your place as my ichiban in the whole JE. But that doesn’t mean you are forgotten. For me, you are always the most special one in my heart. My first ever ichiban in JPOP world. The guy who teaches me lot of stuffs and always the one who never failed in making me laugh. Even just by seeing your smile, no matter how painful my life is, I’m always able to smile. Plus you once said,

“SMILES can save the world”

Your smile saved me so many times already. So please, keep smiling, because your smile is source of power for so many people in this world.

Credit to rightful owner. Not mine!

I will end this here but before that I want to say it again.

I LOVE YOU, NAKAJIMA YUTO.

- Miki Ariake

Thanks, Fumi-chan!

I'm late already so I'm just gonna make this short.

On 5th August, which was on Monday, I went shopping with my ma and pa! Heheh. Ma bought me new shoes! And some other stuffs <3 Love Ma! And because I told her that my friend was going to come over that day and have dinner with us, she bought lotsa things to cook and purposely didn't go to work that day.

Around 3 pm, Fumi-chan arrived at my house! Yay! Then while waiting for dinner, we watched few episodes of Hidarime Tantei Eye in my room. And also Sexy Zone's videos! I'm not sure if she was enjoying watching all those stuffs that I showed... But for sure, I was enjoying myself flailing over KIKUCHI FUMA! <3 My ichiban in Sexy Zone and also the whole Johnnys. (Yes, he snatched Yuto's crown and dominated a large area in my heart! But still, Yuto's place in my heart is VERY special)

Then, we had dinner! Together with all my family members and my uncle with his wife and cute baby. The special menu that night was LAMB! Yumyum! My ma's cooking is always the best! Fumi-chan went home at around 9, after we watched Lee Chong Wei on TV that night. Both me and Fumi-chan are a big fan of Abang Wei, so it's fun to talk about Abang Wei with her.

(Me left, Fumi-chan right)

I had fun! Thanks, Fumi-chan for willing to come over! LOVE YOU!

YABAI! I'm already late!

- Miki Ariake

He did it...again.

He did it again.

Yeah, he did it again.

Today, he sat on the seat next to me and this time he talked about Hey!Say!JUMP. Yes, I repeat, he suddenly sat down next to me and talked about the Japanese group that I love the most. Hey!Say!JUMP. I was shocked. I was like, "How did you know!?"

All my friends know how much I love JUMP. All my friends know how much I like to chat about JUMP. All my friends know how the topic about JUMP can easily make me high. But, I didn't expect that he would know Hey!Say!JUMP. He even know JUMP's songs and even watched their PV! It was shocking because never...never...never I thought he would bring a topic about JUMP when he was with me. Never at all! And today, he just suddenly sat there and said, "Ah, I know this group. Hey!Say!JUMP, right? The one that sings the song 'Arigatou~', right?" while pointing at the wallpaper of my phone. Who would expect that?

He did it again! He made my heart skipped a beat again!

Just when I thought 'that' feeling is no longer there, he did it again. Being all nice to me and even brought up Hey!Say!JUMP to our conversation. "Stay away from me!" I wanted to say that. But...it's not that easy. Plus, when I heard "Hey!Say!JUMP", I couldn't help it but to ask him more about it. Like, how and why he knew about them. In the end, I didn't run away and spent the whole 50 minutes with him sitting next to me. So close that I noticed he has a pair of beautiful brown colored eyes. Luckily, we were not alone. Nao-chan was with us. I just sat there quietly, listening to their stories but there were time when he turned to me and asked me questions, involving me into the conversation. He talked about a lot of stuffs and because of that I got to know more about him and his personality.

He's so friendly.

Like I said in my previous posts, he's friendly to EVERYONE. Fortunately, I'm able to keep myself reminded about that fact and I don't expect more. And now, I'm fine! XD My heart is beating normally. I'm just writing this because I'm happy that I found someone that know JUMP <3 Though he is not really a fan, I'm still happy that he came to me and talked about my beloved Hey!Say!JUMP. Ureshii !

Ikki-san, arigatou!

- Miki Ariake

It's okay. There's nothing to feel sorry for, Lee Chong Wei.

The final match between Lee Chong Wei and Lin Dan has just ended few minutes ago. It was a great performance from both players. My heart almost skipped a beat watching the super tight match. However, luck is not on Lee Chong Wei's side again this time. He didn't win the gold medal. Although he won the first game with 21-15, he lost in the second game with 10-21 (correct me if I'm wrong) and third game... with 19-21. Well. There was not much gap in the points for the third game.


BUT! He did his very best already. I can clearly see how hard he tried. He lost. Yes. But I'm still so proud of him. I still respect him so much and he is still my idol and forever my hero. The match just now, he didn't let Lin Dan to win easily. Lin Dan did have tough moments there! 19-21, the difference is only 2 points! Lee Chong Wei could have won, ya know! It's just that the luck wasn't on his side again this time.

As we all can see, he really tried so hard. For us. His supporters. So, Lee Chong Wei, cheer up! There's nothing to feel sorry for. There is nothing to be disappointed of. You did your best. So really, it's okay! It's okay! (How I wish I can meet him now and tell that to him!) 


I heard of this from a friend that Lee Chong Wei is going to retire after this Olympic game. I'm not sure how true it is. But, if it is true, then...the match just now was his last match? I, honestly, I want to see more of him. I still want to see him plays. But, if it's his decision, I have no right to argue. Though I'm hoping for him to keep playing :')

Lee Chong Wei, you are forever my HERO. My IDOL. I love you. We'll always on your side.


- Miki Ariake

Cleaning...so tired!

Yesterday was holiday so of course, no school. I woke up very late, ya know! And the night before I had planned the things I was going to do for the day. So, I jumped out of my bed and had shower then started doing all the things as planned.


LAUNDRY...done.
RESEARCH ON JAPANESE OCCUPATION FOR HISTORY CLASS...done.
then, CLEANING MY SUPER MESSY ROOM...done.


From 12 noon until 5 in the evening, I was struggling in cleaning my room. You don't know how my room was before the cleaning. It was horrible! With stuffs scattered on the floor, my clothes were unorganized, my mangas and Jdrama collections were everywhere, school textbooks under my bed. One word... HORRIBLE. So, I decided to clean my room today and yes, I DID! Now my room looks...AWESOME and clean ;D I took the pictures of 'before' and 'after' condition of some parts in my lovely room. Wanna see? Scroll down!

That is my bed before and after the cleaning. Hahaha. Can you see there on the BEFORE picture? Horrible, right? Or...not. Oh yeah, the cute MONKEY over there is the one that I got from the Bubu-ton attack machine on Ryutaro's birthday. I still keep it of course, because Ryutaro gave that to me! Pink bed and pink blanket...yeah... I don't like pink and all. My mother chose that colour for me. And yes! I sleep in this king (or queen) sized bed alone.

Huhu, see the difference? DVDs, clothes, bags, bottles were scattered on the floor. And look at those books? Very unorganized. But now! After the cleaning, it looks great! I'm awesome! <3

And here is my most favorite corner in my room! Introducing, my FANGIRLING corner! The place where I do my fangirling routine <3 Every morning or before going to sleep, I will sit there for about an hour and stare at those pictures on the wall. Yeah, mainly are Nakajima Yuto's pictures. Well, he's my ichiban in Hey!Say!JUMP after all. Actually, if I raise my camera further up, there is more :D But I just wanna show you guys my messy study desk, not the posters and all that. Hehe. Now you can see that I'm a super fangirl! Haha.

Here are my organized mangas, Jdramas, Jmovies and anime :D My collection. I have about more than 100 japanese dramas DVDs and animes and Jmovies. I already stopped collecting manga due to some reasons. I can just read them online! Hahaha. Actually, I have a few of Kdramas that I bought when I was a KPOP-er. But...I gave them all to my neighbor, Miharu-chan. I don't like Korean so why would I keep them anyway. No, no, I don't regret my action at all. I know I know, they are expensive but I really don't want to see any Korean stuffs in my room. I even threw away my Junsu's pictures. 


While I was cleaning, I found lots of things! Under my bed, it was like Doraemon's magic pocket, ya know. You can find so many weird stuffs below there. Haha. And and and, here are some stuffs that I found.

My japanese language class time table! I found it under my bed! Well, I'm no longer going to the class because of the coming exam but I'm keeping this as memory! Can you see the teachers' names? Yes, yes! Miss Matsushita and Mr. Maasaki Takahashi, they are real Japanese <3 Very friendly.

And...I found this!! A letter for JUMP that I wrote long time ago! I didn't send it to JUMP, yeah. Will keep this as memory :P I read the content and it is so embarrassing! Rather than a fan letter for JUMP as a whole, it is more like a personal love letter for Yuto <3


Doing the cleaning (ALONE!) from noon till 5 pm sure was tiring. My back hurts so bad! But it was satisfying since my room now looks so...clean. Hahaha. I hope it is not going back to its original messy state again after this! 


I watched Badminton semi final match between Lee Chong Wei and Chen Long from China last night :D And Abang Wei won, straight game! I'm so happy! In the final, his opponent will be either Lin Dan (China) or Lee Hyun Il (Korea) depends on today's result. I can't wait to see the final! Abang Wei, please keep on doing your best! You must win the GOLD! Chaiyo!


Oh, that's all for now. I need to get ready for school. It's already 5 am. I'll be late if I don't move now (yet, I still keep on typing this! Oh someone, STOP me!)


- Miki Ariake

Movie Outing with Suki-chan, Naru-baka and Tifanny!

I was planning to post about this last month! But, I forgot.


On 16th July, which was on Monday, I was finally able to step out of my house and have fun with my friends! Actually, few days before the outing, I was contacted by Tifanny (Not her real name), a friend from my religious school and high school! It has been about a year and a half since we last contacted each other and she also changed her phone number which made it hard to contact her. She suddenly texted me and asked if I want to meet up since the last time we met was in 2010. Of course, I said YES!! Hahaha. I miss her.


So, we decided to go for a movie on the 16th. I invited Suki-chan and Naru-baka as well. I thought it would be awkward if it was just me and her because a year and a half is long! Plus, Suki-chan is also her friend. Thank God, Suki-chan and Naru-baka agreed to go. Actually, me, Suki-chan, Tifanny and one other friend (couldn't join us due to some unavoidable reasons) were best friends. We were always together and even formed a group with the name 'Evil Mental Killer' (I know. I know. Sounds very evil. Haha) but after we graduated from our religious school, we rarely meet each other.


On that 16th July, I arrived at our meeting spot way too early than the planned meeting time. But I was not alone. Naru-baka and my little sister were there with me. While waiting for Tifanny and Suki-chan, we were just wandering around the mall and observing the people around us. AND! I saw a FaceBook friend! Hikaru-san! Yabu-kun's look alike! Yes, his name is Hikaru but his face is 70% similar to Yabu's. Well, didn't get to say hi as he didn't see me.


Tifanny arrived after about an hour. Man, she looks so pretty now! She has the body of a model. So tall. So slim. She's still as friendly as before and it was not as awkward as what I imagined it would be. Suki-chan was late so we went to buy the ticket first. Guess what movie were we watching that day? THE AMAZING SPIDERMAN! Then, after another one hour, at last, Suki-chan arrived! :D


The movie was great! Actually I'm no fan of Spiderman at all. But, this Amazing Spiderman is different. And I like the main guy! He's CUTE. I don't know his name though. We were sitting at the most front row! So my neck was a bit...hahaha. Next to Naru-baka was a guy. You should see Suki-chan's reaction when the guy came and sat next to Naru-baka. She was like, "OMG...It's a guy..." Just a whisper of course.


When the movie finished, we went to the arcade and Karaoke-ing! I never knew that the K-BOX has Japanese songs. I sang Yamashita Tomohisa's "Daite Senorita" and Kamenashi Kazuya's "Kizuna" <3 It was fun! Tifanny told us that she's now waiting to be accepted into Micronet College. I wish her a best of luck! When we already sang more than 20 songs, we headed to the food court and ordered something to eat but Tifanny wasn't able to eat with us since her sister was already there to pick her up so she needed to leave.


It was fun meeting Tifanny again! I hope we can set another date to meet up and that time, that one friend that couldn't come on the 16th would be able to come. I miss her too. I will never forget about that day. Fun moments with friends are really the best time in life.

(From left to right: Me, Naru-baka, Tifanny, Suki-chan)

- Miki Ariake

Am I...annoying when I'm in a good mood?

Today, the whole day, my tension was high. Extremely high! I was really in a very extremely good mood. Err. That sentence somehow sounds wrong. Forgive me for my bad English *wink* My tension is still as high right now :D I laughed a lot today with friends and said lotsa nonsense stuffs. And, today, I bullied more people than the usual days. Hmm.


There are many reasons for this (I feel like I'm writing an essay for History subject. I always start with this sentence for the first paragraph). Firstly, who watch Olympic games!? Me me me! *raise both hands* I only watch Badminton though :D Last night, I watched the round of 16 match between my favorite badminton player from Malaysia, LEE CHONG WEI vs Simon Santoso from Indonesia. And, as expected my beloved Lee Chong Wei won!! xD I'm so damn happy! For your information, I'm a big fan of Lee Chong Wei for a very long time already! My whole family and Fumi-chan knows that very well. And I even call him Abang Wei. ('Abang' is the Malay word for 'big brother') Here are the proofs!!

I've been collecting all information about Abang Wei for years now and I have this one file that full of Newspapers articles about Abang Wei <3 Every time, I see any article or whatever related to Abang Wei in newspapers, magazine, etc, I would cut it and put it inside my file. Someday, if I were to be given a chance to meet him, I would show that file to him!

So, the last night's match is one of the reason for my high tension today. Secondly is because, I received a text message from my beloved senpai at 2 in the morning! What senpai? Oh, just a senior from my martial art class. Hehe. But I kinda have a crush on him. Just a MONKEY CRUSH anyway :P

Third reason is because, I finished my exam already!! xD The last paper was EAS which was this morning! So, no more exam after this until after the holiday. Yeeeehaaaa!! Oh yeah, I have something funny to share. When we were reading the questions paper for EAS exam in the hall today, I saw a CUTE cockroach just below Haru-chan's seat (Her seat was in front of me) so I shouted excitedly, "COCKROACH!" ! Haru-chan quickly looked down to the floor and jumped when she saw the cockroach! She accidentally jumped onto Ikki-san who was sitting next to her. (Eh? No no no, I'm not jealous :P Why would I? I just realized that my feeling for Ikki-san is gone! Yes, gone! It was just a...short term crush :P) THEN, the cockroach moved to Saku-chan and Saku-chan as well, got up from her seat. So funny! HAHAH! My lecturer was like, "What what? What's wrong!?" Man, I was laughing so hard at that scene.

Forth reason is because, I watched BEGINNERS! this morning before leaving for school. Hehe! The third episode! So funny! Kis-My-Ft2's Fujigaya Taisuke plays the main guy in that drama. His role is Shimura Teppei.  BEGINNERS! is the funniest drama I've watched so far this year after Risou No Musuko. I can't wait to watch the next episode :D

(Credit to the owner! Not mine! Got this from Google)

Hmm, I think I mentioned all the reasons already. Oh yeah, there's one more! A very important one! I was in a high tension is because... Yuto's 19th birthday is coming soon! And I'm going to have dinner with my friends on his birthday xD I planned it all and hope everyone that I've invited will be able to come. Those who I've invited to the dinner are all the chosen people :D People that I trust and treasure the most. So, you better be proud! <3

Demo ne, I don't know why but I think today I've annoyed a lot of people with my high tension. Because, I talked about stuffs that do not make any sense a lot. And even laughed at small things, for example, the cockroach thingy. And then I bullied so many people today. And I kept forcing people to  play with me and stuffs. I'm sure they are annoyed. I can see that. I'm sorry. Especially to Haru-chan. I think I annoyed her the most today. I'm sorry. And Fumi-chan also. I'm sorry.

I am annoying. I'm sorry. I won't do it again. Actually I cried today when I was alone in the History classroom while waiting for the clock to hit 2 pm. Gomenasai...

- Miki Ariake

Haru-chan's confession II

Okay, I was supposed to post this yesterday but the internet connection was awfully SLOW. It is still slow right now but I have this feeling that I MUST post this today before the night comes. So here I am.


This is a continuation from the previous post "Haru-chan's confession" :D Last time, I told Haru-chan about Ikki-san and gave her a useless hint about his identity. I thought with that one useless hint, she wouldn't find out. HOWEVER! Yesterday I was shocked when she said, "I KNOW WHO HE IS ALREADY! IKKI-SAN!" when we just entered Geography classroom. Wait, not yesterday...oh no, yes yes! It was yesterday. I was like, "No way! How!? Did you read my blog!?" she answered, "Hmm no. From your status on FaceBook"


I DON'T REMEMBER POSTING ANYTHING ABOUT IKKI-SAN ON MY FACEBOOK or...yeah, maybe I did... but I'm sure I didn't write anything that can expose his real identity. I am sure. So, I jumped into a conclusion that maybe...Haru-chan was lying. So ignoring what she said, I brought up the topic about the 'mysterious' guy that she thought might has a feeling for her. (I'm sorry about my not-so-good English but still understandable, right?). Hahaha. She told me that he is in the same Geography class as us. So, I observed all the boys there. But, I HAVE NO IDEA AT ALL! WHY CAN'T YOU JUST TELL ME, HARU-CHAN !!!? WHAT HAPPENED TO OUR FRIENDSHIP!!? (Copying what Saku-chan said earlier ;D)


At the end, I still can't figure out the identity of that mysterious guy and Haru-chan still doesn't want to tell me *sad face*


BUT, Ikki-san's identity... I don't know how she figured it out! When she mentioned all the names of the boys in our class, I'm sure that I kept my face straight all the time! And when Ikki-san's name was mentioned, I'm very sure my expression didn't change at all! BUT SHE FOUND OUT. This is so not fair! Now she knew about Ikki-san but still, she doesn't want to tell me the identity of the mysterious guy. Haru-chan, not fair !! T.T


Oh ya!  Haru-chan made a confession that day. She told me that...*smirks* Haru-chan, should I say it here? Saku-chan might be reading this, ya know... *evil laugh* Haru-chan told me that...she also...liked Ikki-san before!! She said because he's cute! Oppsss.


Lately, I talked a lot about this kind of things with Haru-chan. About love. Crushes. And all. It's funny because I never really opened about stuffs like this with my friends. Even Suki-chan and Naru-baka. But, I talked about it a lot with Haru-chan.


Ah, I just noticed this yesterday. This is my blog, right? A blog about the story of my life. But, how come I posted a lot about Haru-chan !! I wonder why. Maybe she's the closest to me now? So yesterday, while waiting for our parents to pick us up, I jokingly said to Haru-chan, "Haru-chan, what if...I'm blogging about you? Like all my posts are all about you?" and Haru-chan's reaction was, "Then I will be famous!"


HAHAHA.


- Miki Ariake