Friday, 16 May 2014

Peter Pan

Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

I am back! Sorry for not posting much these days. I am just too lazy. Btw, I had just finished my exam two week ago so yeah, my three months long break has officially started! Yay! XD Oh, the papers? Well, nothing much to say about them. I did my revision and I worked so hard so I regret nothing. But I am still not sure about the result though. Hehe…

So! Forget about the paper! I have a lot of plans for the three months holiday but the thing is I cannot do it alone. Yeah. I need companions. Of course I have Suki-chan and Naru-baka but they have their own life to deal with too. Suki-chan had just got a job last week, I think. I don’t know when will she starts but for sure, she will be busy with her work. Naru-baka is currently working in the same building with my ma. Sometimes, I would go there and hang out at her area. But again, I can’t do that every day. I can feel that being there I am just going to disturb her. Surely, she does feel annoyed of me. Yeah… For sure… In the end, I am all alone again.

*sigh*

I realized they are all growing up :) Suki-chan has a job. Naru-baka is already thinking of getting married and she is really passionate about her passion with videos making that she started working to collect enough money for buying a camera. Everyone has a goal. Except me, I think.

I feel like so far left behind. I don’t know. It’s like I am nothing compare to those people around me. I don’t even have any career targeted on my mind. Yes, I study. I’m a university student and majored in professional communication and media. But…But I don’t know. I’m only doing things for the sake of doing. I’m only going with the flow and I have no idea where I’m going… I have no talents. I’m only good at talking but really, I still feel like I’m nothing.

An awesome fangirl?

Oh yeah. Whatever. The truth is, I am still thinking like a kid. I need to grow up and start thinking mature! But, I don’t want to grow up… I still want to have fun. I know its wrong… But I feel lonely too easily… I realized that as we grow up, the time we spend together has lessened. I miss the old times. I don’t wanna grow up… I wanna go back to old times! …

I am so immature for thinking in this way because everyone knows that to go on with life, we have to go forward. Always, forward. But I can clearly see, that, the future, its too lonely. Well, for me.


Dear Peter Pan, I know you are just a fictional character, but I want to follow you...

Go, Yabu Kota! 'Girlfriend' scandal thingy

Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh

LOL! For this post I am going to touch a bit on the latest scandal on the oldest Hey!Say!JUMP’s member; Yabu Kota. Oh yeah! Yesterday, he got Friday-ed! I was kinda surprised at first when I saw the photos and the article.

It was just this week when I had a dream about Yabu. Yup, he visited me in my dream and he came alone. He never came alone before and so I was surprised to see him. In the dream, he told me something that almost made me fainted. Haha XD He told me that he is quitting JE because he wants to live with his ‘wife’. Yeah, I repeat, WIFE. I was like, “WHAT!?” then a beautiful lady approached us in the dream. When she reached us, Yabu immediately introduced her to me, he said, “This is my wife”.

So yeah, that was the dream I had about Yabu. I thought it was just like those normal dreams we have when we sleep but no. Yesterday, this thingy about Yabu got FRIDAY-ed (the term we used on idols who appear in Friday mag – I think it’s like a tabloid mag -) came out! Here it is! SURPISE, people! SURPRISE!

(Photos credit to this page on FaceBook à Everything about Hey!Say!JUMP)




So the mag says, Yabu Kota (24) is reported to be currently living together with his girlfriend who is said to be older than him (26). According to the source too, it says JE knows about their relationship and approved it but the two are not allowed to be dating in public. SURPRISE! The paparazzi photos were taken just recently when the two went to the convenience store near the apartment they live in approximately around 1 in the morning; after Hey!Say!JUMP’s concert.

Okay, I am not surprised with the paparazzi photos because paparazzis are scary -_- They can capture anything and then make up a random story that can be fit in with the picture they take. But! The photo of the girl kissing Yabu’s cheek and the one with Yabu hugging her, I don’t think those are work of the paparazzi. LOL. Obviously, not. The thing is HOW did they manage to get a hold on those private pictures? How the pictures did got leaked?

Some of the fans said this scandal might just be one of the stunts used to get more attraction or attention from the people. Well, you know, the timing is perfect because JUMP has just done with their LIVE WITH ME in TD concert and they are scheduled to release their third album soon :) Of course, it is risky as fans might get jealous and would get stupid and leave the fandom. But it is possible.

The fans are having a mixed reaction. It was a bit chaotic at first. Fans were shocked, broken hearted and crying. But after awhile, I can see that some have starting to calm down a bit, some have starting to accept the fact that Yabu too is a human; a boy and of course he also have his own private life. He can fall in love and he deserves a love story of his own.

Last night I had a short conversation with a few tobikkos on FaceBook; A group of mature tobikkos. They admitted that they were shocked at first and some of them even cried so hard when the news reached them. But they are so mature and positive thinkers. I can’t help it but to admire these strong hearted fans. Here is some of what they said about this Yabu’s scandal:

“Shock mode… but still I support them… If he’s in love then let it be, right?”

“I will support!! :)”

“Well, it hurts seeing them. I almost cry too, but well, that’s Yabu’s life. He has his own privacy too, so if he thinks it’s the best for him, I will support as his fan. And I hope no bad thing will happen to the pretty girl”

“For now, of they are really a couple, I hope nothing bad will happen to the girl, just like how fans do something bad to Rubi-chan and Mariya”

“It’s normal when Yabu want to cherish someone in his life. He is 24 anyway”

“Fans shouldn’t meddle too much on idols’ life. Everyone has their own life and privacy which they don’t want people to meddle with. Just think about ourselves, do you want if someone always meddling with your privacy?”

“Totally supporting this pair and hopefully we will not get anymore sad news about it like breaking up or giving up things. I just wish Yabu to stay and be the Yabu we all know :)”

“I’m shocked but I think it is not wrong for him to have partner in life. He also wants a life like other people too. Poor my Yabu ne. Don’t worry, Yabu. I will always support you until the end. Be strong. Tobikkos always support and love you even you already have a partner”

“He is a guy and every guy wants a girl to be with him to support him. We are not the fated girls for Yabu-kun, so support him with his fated girl (that if she is)… So minna-san, please be with our Yabunbun and help him. I finally calmed down and think about it slowly, and it’s really nice and cute, you know ^_^”

“I take it pretty well that he’s dating someone. I mean, he’s human; he deserves to have a love story too like everyone. And somehow it doesn’t surprise me that he’s go on a date and not caring if he get photographed. I mean, he has a careless side too. I personally think Yabu’s girlfriend (if it is true) is pretty cute. I wish all the best for him, and I will always support our Yabunbun!”

“He is a boy. He has the right to get girlfriend although the fans are feeling sad too. But we don’t have the right to stop him”

“His fans should be happy he’s happy. I really don’t get the concept of ‘an idol is everyone’s and not one’s’. That can probably be apply to Hatsune Miku but not to real life people”

“I support Yabu >_<”

“I think if we’d love him so should support for him ne. If he’s happy, I’ll happy too. Minna-san please continue support for him”

“SUPPORT YABU!! He’s a human who fell in love”

“I’ll never leave JUMP behind just because of these kinds of news. It may hurt a lot but I am just a fan and I have to accept their decision and stuffs. It may not be right now but I’m sure I will be able to support them :) I have to. I’m supporting JUMP since 2007, even from the start of Hey!Say!7 and that will never ever stop. I’ll be forever a Tobikko. And whatever happen JUMP will forever be 10”

So yeah, those are some comments from the tobikkos I talked with last night. It’s a good thing that they are able to take it positively and continue to support Yabu :)

But of course, they are some who are having a hard time to accept the news. Yeah, especially the tobikkos who their ichiban is Yabu Kota.

“Kinda sad, but I cried at first”

“Actually I am shocked *crying to death when heard this*”

“I have no idea what to say, I just can’t find the words to describe my feeling”

“I don’t know what to do or say… Is that really him!? Still can’t believe it T.T But please I don’t want him to quit JE”

As for myself, I didn’t know how to react at first but somehow I calmed down almost immediately. I don’t really mind to be honest. I only hope that this will not affect Yabu’s career with JUMP and JE in any way. Because as we all now, Yabu Kota is one of the pillars of Hey!Say!JUMP. JUMP can never be without him!

But there is a rumour saying that Yabu is quitting JE once he reach 30 years old which is like 6 years from now and I can’t help it but to be bothered by it. But if it is true, then what he is telling me in my dream is true. But we don’t know yet for sure.

I can only hope it’s not true. We all know how much Yabu loves Hey!Say!JUMP and the members, right? So I doubt he will leave JE. I am sure he will stay with JUMP and JE as long as he can :)

I don’t know what else to say…

But…whatever happens, let’s just keep supporting Yabu and JUMP as we always did before. He loves us and we know it :) I know it is kinda hurtful at first for Yabu’s ichibaners and I know they need time to accept this :( But I know they know that the best thing to do is to support Yabu. That is what we call LOVE.

I really feel like hugging all Yabu’s ichibaners right now. I am not one so I can’t say that I understand their feeling completely… But I know time will heal everything. Just don’t think too much about it. Everything will be just fine. Something like this cannot be avoided. So fans just have to stick together and comfort those who need comfort :’)


That is all :) I hope this post is worth reading :)