[FANFIC] Love Diary Page ONE

<3 LOVE DIARY PAGE ONE <3

“Hei Kawashima. What are you doing, huh?” asked Fuka as she stood in front of my desk. When I heard that, I quickly stopped writing and closed the book in rush.

“N-nothing…Just a…history essay…” I answered her question but she didn’t look convinced by it as she glared at me. I knew what she was planning so I quickly hid the book inside my drawer. Looking down to my laps, I bit my lower lip.

Fuka was my classmate in school and she was different from everyone. She was a one rich girl and she looked very stylist even when she was only in her school uniform, and pretty too. But one thing I didn’t like about her was her arrogance bossy bitchy-like attitude. She loved to boast around about her rich parents and she always ordered people around. She had sharp poisonous tongue too. When she talked, she didn’t filter her words and hurt other’s feeling. And one thing I didn’t understand. Why was she always targeting me!?

I could feel that Fuka was still staring at me. Now, my whole body was shaking and I gripped on my skirt tightly.

“You’re hiding something from me, are you not?” she asked using her scary tone that I hated the most. I closed my eyes tightly as I pretended that I didn’t hear her question but I jumped a bit when she suddenly slammed her hands on my desk. A loud bang was heard and the class became silence at once. Everyone was now looking at our way. Slowly, very slowly I lifted up my head and looked at Fuka but quickly looked away when I met her eyes.

They were flaring with evil.

“Show me that book!” she ordered but I shook my head. NO! There was no way I would show that book to her. It contained ‘stuffs’ that no one else except me could see. I wrote my secrets in there and if the secrets were to be revealed…NO!

I saw Fuka turned to her friends and gave them a signal. I could tell what they were planning to do so I quickly grabbed the book from the drawer and ran for the door but I was too slow. Her two friends managed to catch me and drag me back to Fuka. With a smirk on her face, Fuka approached me. I hug the book tightly into my chest, refusing to let it go. I couldn’t run away now. On my right and left were the two other girls, Sato and Mayu. These two were also known as Fuka’s right hand men.

“Please...leave me alone! There is nothing in this book related to you!” I begged as I hugged the book tighter. I looked at my other classmates, hoping that someone would step out to help me. But…none was brave enough to face Fuka and her followers.

Fuka laughed as she was now standing only inches away from me. With her hands crossed on her chest, she eyed the book in my hands very carefully. “I bet there’s something interesting in there…” she said, smirking.

I tried to run away but Sato and Mayu grabbed my arms before I even get the chance to turn around. They were too harsh that the book accidentally slipped off from my grip and landed on the floor. My eyes widened when I saw Fuka picked it up and held it in her hand.

“NO PLEASE! Don’t open it! I beg you!” my tears started to flood my eyes but that didn’t affect the evil Fuka at all.

In front of my eyes, she…opened the book and stared at the first page. MY SECRETS were going to be leaked. Everyone else was just quietly watching Fuka as she read the page silently. Curiosity could clearly be seen on each of their faces.

Then, Fuka laughed out loud! “I can’t believe this! So, you are ‘that’ type of girl, huh Kawashima?” she asked me while laughing her heart out. She then turned to everyone around her, “Do you guys interested in knowing the content of this book? I can read the first page LOUDLY for you guys”

As expected, everyone nodded and some even shouted ‘YEAY!’ when Fuka said she could read it for them. I heard Fuka cleared her throat and took a short deep breath before she looked back at the first page of the book. When I couldn’t hold it anymore, my tears fell merrily, wetting my cheeks. “It is over now, Umika…” I whispered to myself and closed my eyes, waiting for the first sentence that I wrote in the book to come out of that DIRTY mouth belonged to Fuka.

But…I didn’t hear anything. No cheers. No laughter. Nothing. All I could hear was silence. So, slowly, I opened my eyes and saw something that was even worst, even more terrifying.

He was there. He was standing there with his back at me, facing Fuka. And what surprised me more was…the book was no longer in Fuka’s hand. It was in his hand. He was now holding it, the book where I kept all my secrets.

Why was this even worst than having Fuka reading it out loud? Because he was…

Chinen Yuri.

“The teacher is on his way. It is better if everyone get to your seat now” he said to all and because he was the class representative, everyone followed his order immediately. Sato and Mayu let go of my arms and went to their seats. Even Fuka obeyed Chinen without saying a word.

After making sure that everyone had seated on their seats, Chinen turned around and faced me. I froze when he looked at me in the eyes. “I’m keeping this book until the end of the lesson. Come and get it from me later” he said to me. His tone was unfriendly. Well, that was exactly how he talked to everyone.

“But…” I was about to say something when the teacher came in. So I just lowered my head and walked to my seat. Chinen did the same too. I watched him as he put the book under his drawer and sighed.

“Isn’t that bad?”

I turned to the voice. Yes, it was belonged to Fuka. I didn’t know why my luck was this bad. From the first year of high school, it was always Fuka whose seat was next to me.

Smirking, Fuka pointed her index finger to Chinen, “He’s holding the book right now. What if he…opens it and sees what you write in there? You were lucky just now but it wouldn’t be the same anymore once he found out about your SECRETS”

I looked away at once. I didn’t want to imagine that. If that really happens, it would be the end of my world. Because…in that book…were… Please don’t let him open the book, God. I begged silently inside my mind. During the whole lesson, I couldn’t help but to keep my eyes on Chinen. I was afraid. I was so afraid. I couldn’t stop imagining him opening the book and read what was inside.

But, thank God. He didn’t. The class finally ended after one and a half hour later. It was time for physical education now and one by one of my classmates left the class. I was waiting for the class to be emptied so that I could approach Chinen and take the book back from him. When everyone was already out of the class, I quickly stood up and approached Chinen who was still copying the notes from the whiteboard onto his book.

“Chinen-kun…c-can…can I…” I hate this. This always happened whenever I tried to talk to him. I always felt nervous.

“Wait…” he answered but was still focussing on the whiteboard. I just stood there quietly, waiting for him to finish his work. This was really an uncomfortable situation. Alone with Chinen in the class like this, I couldn’t help but to feel nervous. My heart was thumping madly inside my chest. Without realizing it, I was staring at him. His eyes, his nose, his lips, his hair…all looked so perfect to me. I found myself blushing and quickly looked away.

Honestly, I’ve been keeping this ‘feeling’ toward him. Yes, I loved this boy. It started around two years ago when I first stepping my feet into this school. That day was my first day in this school. I was from Miyagi and I just moved to Tokyo, so I didn’t know anyone. Ever since I was small, I was a shy type of girl who was really bad at making friends. So, on my first day, I was just wandering around the school alone, observing the people around me introducing themselves to each other.

I was sitting on the bench near the basketball court when a group of girls approached me so I quickly stood up and introduced myself because I thought they wanted to make friends with me and I was happy. But, I didn’t know when did it go wrong. One of them suddenly snatched my bag from me and threw it to the ground. The shocked me just stood there, motionless, looking at my stuffs that were now scattered on the ground. The girls laughed and started to step on my books and bag. One of them came to me and pulled my hair hard. I was scared that I didn’t know what to do. I just let my tears fell as they pushed me to the ground and they left me there with my dirty school uniform and injured knee.

I didn’t move. I cried, cried and cried. There were people there but they only giggled as they walked by. No one was willing to help me. That was when he came, holding out his hand to me. I stopped crying at once and took his hand. Ignoring the stares from the other students around us, he helped me to get on my feet again, gathered all my stuffs that were on the ground and put them back into my bag. Holding my bag, he looked at my injured knee.

“You are bleeding. The sick bay is on the first floor of the admin block” that was the first sentence he said to me. After placing my bag on the bench behind me, he then walked away.

And…before I knew it, I’ve already fallen in love with him.

We turned out to be in the same class and his name was Chinen Yuri. After that incident, I tried to talk to him again but I didn’t have the gut. So I just watched him from afar. Although it was like that, I felt happy. Just by watching him, seeing him everyday in class, bumping into him in the corridor, I felt so happy.

Now, let me share something with you guys. I…always wrote everything that I knew about him in a book. When I got back from school everyday, I would never forget to write in the book, about what he was doing that day, about what was he eating and stuffs. I compiled all things I got from watching him the whole day in A BOOK. Yeah, you guessed it right. It was ‘that book’. I knew I sounded like a crazy stalker. That was why no one else except me should read the content.

Fuka had known about this secret that I've been keeping to myself for years. I was sure that she would not keep quiet about it and tomorrow my secrets would already be spread throughout the whole school. But now, I didn't have time to think about her because that book was…in his hand and I needed to get it back into my hand as fast as possible.

I was too absorbed with the past that I almost jumped a bit when Chinen suddenly asked, “Kawashima, right?”

“Y-yes…” I answered shortly.

He had finished his work and now he was packing his pens and stuffed them into his pencil case. I just watched him quietly, blushing seeing him this close. He then put his hand into his drawer and my book came into sight. “Something is better being kept at home” he said as he eyed the cover of the book which sent shiver through out my whole body.

I was not sure if he was talking to me or to himself but I found myself replying him with a, “Eh?”

He stood up and turned to face me. There was not much difference on our height so his eyes were pretty much on the same level as mine and they were staring straight into mine. Somehow, they looked as cold as ice. I realized it ever since the day I first met him. He never smiled. Never once I saw him smiling, even when he was with his friends. And those eyes, they were always like that. Cold. Painful. Mysterious. There was still a lot I didn't know about him.

“This book is your diary, am I right?”

His question brought me back to my senses. How did he know!? Did he…did he open it? No. I kept my eyes on him for the whole period and he didn't even take it out from inside his drawer. Plus, he was focusing a hundred percent on the teacher the whole time.

“You’re disgusting”

%To Be Continued%