[FANFIC] Love Diary Page Two

Love Diary – chapter 2

(Kawashima Umika’s point of view)

Knock knock knock!

“Umika, until when are you planning to stay in bed!? You will be late for school!”

I heard my mother shouted from outside the room but instead of answering her, I pulled the blanket over my head and pretended that I didn’t hear a thing. I didn’t want to go to school! Especially after what happened on the day before… I closed my eyes tightly and hugged both my knees under the blanket. I didn’t even want to remember the unfortunate incident! It was not just a nightmare! It happened! It really happened in reality!

#flashback#

My heart practically stopped functioning for a second when those words came out of his mouth.

“You’re disgusting” he said it directly to my face. I was shocked! I was petrified. I didn’t know what he meant by that but it could only mean one thing. He had opened the book. He had read what was in there. My life is over… I thought.

I didn’t know what to say as tears started to accumulate in my eyes. I never expect this. I have always wanted to talk to him again, to be in the middle of his attention but I never expect that it would happen in such an embarrassing way. And it really was painful hearing the words coming out from the mouth of the boy I was so in love with. Right now, all I wanted to do was take the book and run away AND never to appear in front of him again! I would forget about him and he would forget about me.

That was what I thought.

However, when I tried to snatch the book away from him and get it over with, in a flash he put the book into his bag and zipped it up in there. I looked at him disbelievingly. Why?

“This is surely going to be interesting” his cold voice echoed throughout the empty classroom. For a second there, I saw an expression on his face that he had never shown before. A smirk was clearly visible.

…and he left me alone there, standing like a stone as if had been cursed by the legendary curse of Medusa.

#End of Flashback#

Argh!! I so wish I could just disappear from this world and never come back again! But that wish would never come true when mother splashed me with a bucket of water right in my bed. I didn’t know how and when she managed to enter the room but I didn’t have to think of an answer as I screamed because of the cold.

Seriously, mother…

So in the end, I was left with no choice but to come to school. My legs felt so heavy that I had to drag them forcefully as I headed to my classroom. Maybe I was just being sensitive than usual or maybe it was really what was happening; I felt that every eyes were on me as I walked through the hallway. I couldn’t look up. I just couldn’t…

When I arrived at the door of my classroom, I spent quite some time standing there before I finally reached out for the door knob; twisted it and pushed open the door. With my head low, I stepped into the class. I was expecting that my arrival would be greeted by my classmates laughing hysterically at me because my secret was revealed by either Fuka or…

Chinen Yuri.

But, it didn’t go as I expected. No one in the classroom even paid any attention on me as I walked to my seat. They were busy with their own stuffs as how it usually was. Sitting on my seat, I eyed everyone from the corner of my eyes. Didn’t they see me walking into the classroom? I asked myself. It was weird. It was as if everyone have forgotten about what happened the day before or maybe they have completely lost interest on the book. But wait, didn’t Fuka already spread my secret all around the school… or did she not? I asked myself again but obviously I received no answer.

When I was panicking over the unexpected situation I was in, the person I always wish to just disappear from my life suddenly appeared at the door of the classroom. Yes, you guessed it right.

Fuka; and her two loyal followers.

As I already expected, she went straight at me with that usual evil smile on her face.

“Oh, Kawashima, I can’t believe you still have the face to show up in this school” she said to me. Her two followers each acted a fake gasp and looked at each other before they laughed loudly.

Oh crap… I knew I shouldn’t have come.

Fuka leaned her face nearer to me and stared at me right into my eyes. I couldn’t help it but to shiver. Those eyes… I was scared. Fuka smirked, “I think it’s about time for everyone to know”

Then she straightened her body and swiftly turned her back to me. She clapped her hands twice and just with that she managed to grab away all of my other classmates’ attention. They stopped what they were doing and all eyes were looking our way now.

I couldn’t do anything but stayed on my seat, hands clutching tightly on my skirt. Eyes locked on the desk in front of me. I did have the urge to fight back by grabbing on her hair and pull it hard till she falls to the floor, crying and begging me to let her go… but you know it was definitely impossible for a coward girl like me. I was so helpless. I didn’t even know the reason for me to be born in this world. I couldn’t do anything! Anything!

Fuka walked on her heels and went to the centre of the room. As what she wished, everyone was paying full attention on her; waiting for my SECRET to be revealed. The same curiosity as the day before can be seen on their faces.

“Listen, everyone. I have a super amazing story to share over here. I hope everyone can relax a bit, clear your mind and get ready for a big laugh later” Fuka started as she locked her eyes on me. As expected everyone cheered and clapped.

FINE!

If Fuka is really going to say it in front of all this people, then I shouldn’t be here! I said to myself and with that set in my mind, I stood up from my seat; awkwardly. As if she could read my mind, Fuka let out a light laugh. “Oh, are you thinking of running away now, my dear Kawashima-chan?” she said, mockingly.

I gathered all my guts and walked toward her; step by step, slowly. She looked at me with a confused expression. “Now what? Are you gonna pull my hair or what?”

I wished I could do that! But I stopped a meter away from her and lowered down my head. I started crying. SHIT! Seeing my tears, Fuka laughed madly like a witch and soon after that the classroom was filled with laughter. Of course I was the center of the laughter.

If only I could have a wish granted at that time, the only thing I would wish for was to be deleted from this world as well as from everyone’s memories.

When I couldn’t hold it anymore, with all my energy left, I ran toward the door. I was looking down all the time as I ran to the door but I could see a figure of someone standing there. However I just didn’t care anymore. All I had in my head was just to run away from this ‘hell’.

As I was about to step out of the door, the person standing there suddenly grabbed a hold of my wrist causing me to stop running right away. My eyes widened as I realized who it was.

“C-Chinen-kun…”

He didn’t say anything but instead he pulled me back into the classroom by my wrist. Everyone went quiet at once as Chinen-kun stood behind the teacher’s desk and stared at everyone. He let go of my wrist and let me stood there behind him awkwardly. I was still shocked by his sudden appearance. Surely, a lot of unexpected events happened today.

“Are you done, Miss Hoshino Fuka?” he said to Fuka in a tone that could easily make anyone shivers to death.

Sato and Mayu froze as Fuka stuttered, “C-Chinen kun… I…I… I was just…”

“Just what?” again, Chinen questioned her with that scary tone.

The classroom was all silence until Fuka gained back her confidence and curved an evil smile as she looked at me. I think she remembered about the book. “Chinen-kun, it is great that you are here now. Actually that thing I am going to talk about is… very closely related to you. In fact, you are the lead character”

I gulped at that. Fuka is indeed an evil witch! I hate her! I hate her! I wanted to scream that out but I had no time for that. Looking at Chinen’s back, I waited for his response to what Fuka had just said but he didn’t say anything. Instead, he watched as Fuka moved towards him arrogantly as she smirked at me.

“I know you are interested as well, Chinen-kun” she started as she was now standing right in front of Chinen. She looked at me and smiled sweetly, “That girl…she is actually…”

Fuka was about to reveal my secret when Chinen suddenly cut in in the middle of her sentence. “My woman”

My woman? Did he just say that?

The whole class gasped at that. I wasn’t sure if I heard that right but the reaction of everyone showed that it seemed like I heard it correctly. But I had no idea what he meant by that.

“W-what what do you mean by that, Chinen-kun?”

There. Fuka asked the question I wanted to ask. I was curious with the answer as well.

Chinen, instead of straight away giving an answer to the question, he walked to the middle of the classroom and looked at everyone. His expression was really hard to read. He kept looking around until his eyes settled on me. I froze.

“I will make sure that those who lay even a finger on her with a negative intention, to right away drop out from this school”

His stare was so intense that I looked away at once. My heart was thumping like crazy inside me. My head was all messed up! I didn’t know what to think or what to do.

“Kawashima Umika. My woman.”

Hearing that, everyone’s eyes widened. Including me, of course.

WHAT IN THE WORLD IS HAPPENING!?

% To be continued %

I’m really sorry for the short chapter. I will try my best to write a longer one for the upcoming chapters. I want to apologies for my long period of absence. I promise to update regularly from now on, especially during my semester break. Jyaa!

Please forgive me for any grammar or spelling mistakes. Hehe.

On a night like this

On a night like this, I could only wish for one thing.

A better tomorrow.

I’m tired. I’m exhausted with all of this. Tears, tears, tears are my only friend for a time like this.

I love parents so much that I would actually kill myself if that could make them happy.

Their tears are my tears.

They love me. They care for me. Not only me. But all of us.

But why can’t you understand, my brother? Why can’t you see? Why?

Don’t you remember? Since the day you were born, can’t you remember how much love have they given you? How much tears they have shed for you when you were sick? How much sweat they have produced just to raise you up, strong and healthy?

Have you forgotten all of that?

I can’t believe you are so dare.

Talking like that to them. Hurting their feelings. Treating them like shit. Who do you think you are?

You have no right, my brother.

They sacrificed a lot. For you.

Why can’t you remember that?

Have you ever heard of this saying, ‘Think before you speak’?

Have you thought of how much pain they would suffer because your words?

Did you know? Did you know that she cried?

Did you know? Did you know that he cried?

Of course you don’t.

You didn’t even look back at them when you stepped out of the house burning with anger.

Anger. Why? Why did you let anger take control over you, my brother?

Are you really that weak?

Don’t you want to see their smile? Their happy face? Like how they always look forward to see you happy.

My brother, don’t you love them?

Are they no important to you?

Are they just some shits to you?

I don’t understand. I really don’t understand you at all.

But I know. They love you.

They love you.

It is just you who can’t see it.

This night full of tears… will definitely be a sleepless night.

I don’t care about you, my brother. The only thing I know is that I love them. Mother and father, they are my world. Their tears are my tears. Their happiness is my happiness.

Now. Will you come back and seek for their forgiveness?

Listen here, my brother. Until you ask for their forgiveness, you are NOT my brother. 

Poster I made!

Just a poster I made for my fan-fiction. Yeah, it's very simple :P And I forgot to put the title 'LOVE DIARY' there *sweatdrops*

Human

Hey, I am here again.

This will just be a short post as I have to leave this place in about 15 minutes.

A friend just said to me that WE MUST NEVER GET ANGRY.

NEVER

When she said NEVER, yeah, it means NEVER.

It is an indirect speech which means, it has meaning. Oh yeah. She was directing it to me but in an indirect way. Okay. I know very well that I am the type that gets mad easily. But I have reason when that happens. A very VALID reason.

We must NEVER get angry. The hell man? We are human.

So, you are saying as a human we can’t be angry but what about those who make people angry? So, which one is actually the right and the wrong one here?

I’m not going to say if I am wrong or I am right. I don’t even feel that I am right. Nor I feel I am wrong.

Hmm. I will just leave everything to your imagination.

Haha! This post is stupid and weird and does not make any sense at all. So, bye.

To that friend, you are still my friend. So don’t mind this post.

- Miki Ariake

Midsummer Night's Dream

Hello.

I’m in uni right now and am very bored. And so, now I am here typing some random stuff on this blog just to kill the time while waiting for my 10 am class to start.

Hmm… What should I talk about? Well…

Let’s just talk about… Oh ya! Let’s talk about the last Friday’s drama preview. It was awesome! Haha XD Both my groups (Midsummer Night’s Dream and Two Sides of A Coin) did a very well done job! All of us, the drama students came very early to uni even though it was Friday (minus those who had classes and other stuffs to do) just to help with setting up the place where the stage would be and organizing the changing rooms. All of us were working hard together and everyone did the jobs assigned to them. It was a very beautiful sight. I love how everyone worked together, filling with laughter and smiles could be seen on everyone’s face. I wish I could record everything but I was busy as well.

When the boys were busy preparing to go the mosque for the Friday prayer, my Midsummer Night’s Dream group was busy doing a last minute practice. We did practice most of the scenes but we didn’t get to do the finale scene because of the limited time during the practice week. LOL! So we only finished practicing the finale scene an hour before the DRY RUN preview. It was a mess! Because two of us were sick; Justin and Arthur and most of us always forgot our lines. So instead of forcing Justin to practice with us, we let him rest in the male’s changing room. Poor Justin :(

Then we changed into our costume while waiting for the boys to come back from the mosque because Midsummer was the first group to perform the preview that day. My Midsummer costume is very simple; just a Cara Melayu with Sinjang and Dastar (Google them up!) because we are doing a Multicultural version of Midsummer Night’s Dream. Our Duke (plays by Justin) is an Indian. Haha XD I have to agree that this idea is very unique.

The preview was supposed to start at 2:30 pm but Mr. Low was late so we started late but it was no problem because it gave us extra time to practice our scenes. When we were about to start, I was so damn nervous. I hadn’t fully memorized my lines and two of us were sick… I was so worried. Still we had no choice but to do it. So we just went with the flow! We did forget our lines in the middle of performing but we improvised! The most embarrassing part was when I forgot my line! The actual lines were,

“No, you’re just taunting me. You’ll pay for this if I ever see you face-to-face in the daylight. Go wherever you want. I’m exhausted; I need to lie down on this cold ground. But watch out. I’ll find you at dawn (lies down and sleeps)”

But I forgot! I messed up! Haha XD I was like, “No! You’re just taunting me. Coward! Go wherever you want! Urgh! I’m exhausted! I want to sleep! But Lysander, I will-- I will find—URGH! I will just sleep.”

And just lied down. That was embarrassing but everyone actually liked it. They laughed at that part like crazy. Even our director, Azy, laughed at the back stage. Overall, they liked our Midsummer Night’s Dream play. They laughed a lot and the messages were delivered well to the audiences.

Once Midsummer was done with the performance, Mr. Low brought us to another room to talk to us while waiting for the next group to prepare. I was freaking out when he said that he wanted to talk to us personally. LOL! But once I entered the room, the first thing he said to me was, “Demetrius! Well done! You are the most improved!” My face lit up and I was like, “Realllyyyyyy?” Haha XD Mr. Low complimented me a lot and even said that I was even more manly and Arthur! Oh God, I was so thankful.

Midsummer Night’s Dream did great, as well as Two Sides of A Coin! Both were awesome! Oh, I have to go now. It’s almost 10 am, class is about to start. I will come later! :D

Tik tok tik tok.

Hei! I am back. It’s 12:43 pm and I am at the cafeteria right now. Fuh, today’s class was so emotional. Haha XD Because it was the last lecture class for this semester. We took a group photo together :D

Starting tomorrow we will all be very busy with our own group rehearsal but of course we will still be seeing each other. Haha XD I love my Drama classmates so much. Only in Drama class that I can be more open and I feel very welcomed. I know everyone and everyone knows me. We are really like a one big family. I’m not sure if I will be taking another drama module next semester…but I do want to…

Oh okay. I have to go now. I will try to update again soon if I have free time. Actually, I was planning to talk about this one particular person but… I don’t have the time. JYA!

- Miki Ariake

Drama, drama, drama.

Hey, everyone. I finally got some free time to write something in here. It’s been awhile, yeah, how are you guys? Haha XD I posted the first chapter of one of my story on my last post. How’s it? I’m trying to write the second chapter but I keep getting writer block. Plus, I have been super busy nowadays, with drama practices. And guess what? I am right now in Uni; since 8 in the morning and now it is around 6 pm. I will have to stay here till 9 pm later.

This is not the first. I have been staying until as late as 10 pm in uni since early last week. From 8 until 5 pm, I have practice with Midsummer night’s dream and then from 6 until 9 pm, I’ll be with The Two Side’s of A coin.

Did I tell you this already? I’m in two plays! Oh well, my official group is Midsummer but then the other group which is the Two Sides Of A Coin doesn’t have enough members because they have a lot of characters. So, I became a volunteer and play as Bella in their play. So yeah, that’s why I have been busy for the past weeks.

It is tiring but it is always fun! We always have so much fun and I never regret the fact that I chose Drama module as one of my modules this year.

In Midsummer night’s Dream, I’m playing Demetrius! Yes, a male character! I’m a female playing a male character. Awesome, isn’t? Of course, I had a hard time to actually be more like a man but I have my drama family who always give me help. I’m so grateful to them!

The performance will be on 13^th November. NEXT WEEK! Everyone is working so hard to make sure that everything is perfect! And actually, tomorrow is the preview. I still need to memorize my lines because I keep forgetting. I need to work harder.

Err, what else should I be talking about? Oh ya! I’ve been watching Running Man for the past weeks. Oh wait, don’t just jump into any stupid conclusion. I still don’t like Running Man. VERY MUCH. Then WHY AM I WATCHING IT!? I’m doing it for someone; a loyal reader of all my fan fictions that I have posted on the internet. She is from The Philippines. Haha XD A friend of mine. Last month, she suddenly emailed me and asked if I can write a MONDAY COUPLE fan fiction for her. At first I was like WHAT THE HELL is that. I had no idea what MONDAY COUPLE was, then she started talking about Running Man and stuffs and I found out Monday Couple is Gary and Ji Hyo; two of the permanent members of Running Man.

I don’t like Korean, at all. I’m not being racist but I just don’t like them. Their music, their variety shows, their drama, I never liked them. I guess because they are not to my taste. Well. But yeah, I’ve been watching Running Man, from the very first episode and now I am on episode 90 something. I only focusing on the couple though because I need to write as soon as possible so I’m trying my best to understand these two better so that I can just start story and get it over with. Honestly, I feel like skipping every single episode that doesn’t have any Monday Couple moments in them. Well, I actually did skip some episodes already.

Oh, I better go now.

We are gonna start practicing.

Bye and I will see you again when I see you.

Down below are just some pictures from our preview and practices :D Just sharing.

- Miki Ariake -

[FANFIC] Love Diary Page ONE

<3 LOVE DIARY PAGE ONE <3

“Hei Kawashima. What are you doing, huh?” asked Fuka as she stood in front of my desk. When I heard that, I quickly stopped writing and closed the book in rush.

“N-nothing…Just a…history essay…” I answered her question but she didn’t look convinced by it as she glared at me. I knew what she was planning so I quickly hid the book inside my drawer. Looking down to my laps, I bit my lower lip.

Fuka was my classmate in school and she was different from everyone. She was a one rich girl and she looked very stylist even when she was only in her school uniform, and pretty too. But one thing I didn’t like about her was her arrogance bossy bitchy-like attitude. She loved to boast around about her rich parents and she always ordered people around. She had sharp poisonous tongue too. When she talked, she didn’t filter her words and hurt other’s feeling. And one thing I didn’t understand. Why was she always targeting me!?

I could feel that Fuka was still staring at me. Now, my whole body was shaking and I gripped on my skirt tightly.

“You’re hiding something from me, are you not?” she asked using her scary tone that I hated the most. I closed my eyes tightly as I pretended that I didn’t hear her question but I jumped a bit when she suddenly slammed her hands on my desk. A loud bang was heard and the class became silence at once. Everyone was now looking at our way. Slowly, very slowly I lifted up my head and looked at Fuka but quickly looked away when I met her eyes.

They were flaring with evil.

“Show me that book!” she ordered but I shook my head. NO! There was no way I would show that book to her. It contained ‘stuffs’ that no one else except me could see. I wrote my secrets in there and if the secrets were to be revealed…NO!

I saw Fuka turned to her friends and gave them a signal. I could tell what they were planning to do so I quickly grabbed the book from the drawer and ran for the door but I was too slow. Her two friends managed to catch me and drag me back to Fuka. With a smirk on her face, Fuka approached me. I hug the book tightly into my chest, refusing to let it go. I couldn’t run away now. On my right and left were the two other girls, Sato and Mayu. These two were also known as Fuka’s right hand men.

“Please...leave me alone! There is nothing in this book related to you!” I begged as I hugged the book tighter. I looked at my other classmates, hoping that someone would step out to help me. But…none was brave enough to face Fuka and her followers.

Fuka laughed as she was now standing only inches away from me. With her hands crossed on her chest, she eyed the book in my hands very carefully. “I bet there’s something interesting in there…” she said, smirking.

I tried to run away but Sato and Mayu grabbed my arms before I even get the chance to turn around. They were too harsh that the book accidentally slipped off from my grip and landed on the floor. My eyes widened when I saw Fuka picked it up and held it in her hand.

“NO PLEASE! Don’t open it! I beg you!” my tears started to flood my eyes but that didn’t affect the evil Fuka at all.

In front of my eyes, she…opened the book and stared at the first page. MY SECRETS were going to be leaked. Everyone else was just quietly watching Fuka as she read the page silently. Curiosity could clearly be seen on each of their faces.

Then, Fuka laughed out loud! “I can’t believe this! So, you are ‘that’ type of girl, huh Kawashima?” she asked me while laughing her heart out. She then turned to everyone around her, “Do you guys interested in knowing the content of this book? I can read the first page LOUDLY for you guys”

As expected, everyone nodded and some even shouted ‘YEAY!’ when Fuka said she could read it for them. I heard Fuka cleared her throat and took a short deep breath before she looked back at the first page of the book. When I couldn’t hold it anymore, my tears fell merrily, wetting my cheeks. “It is over now, Umika…” I whispered to myself and closed my eyes, waiting for the first sentence that I wrote in the book to come out of that DIRTY mouth belonged to Fuka.

But…I didn’t hear anything. No cheers. No laughter. Nothing. All I could hear was silence. So, slowly, I opened my eyes and saw something that was even worst, even more terrifying.

He was there. He was standing there with his back at me, facing Fuka. And what surprised me more was…the book was no longer in Fuka’s hand. It was in his hand. He was now holding it, the book where I kept all my secrets.

Why was this even worst than having Fuka reading it out loud? Because he was…

Chinen Yuri.

“The teacher is on his way. It is better if everyone get to your seat now” he said to all and because he was the class representative, everyone followed his order immediately. Sato and Mayu let go of my arms and went to their seats. Even Fuka obeyed Chinen without saying a word.

After making sure that everyone had seated on their seats, Chinen turned around and faced me. I froze when he looked at me in the eyes. “I’m keeping this book until the end of the lesson. Come and get it from me later” he said to me. His tone was unfriendly. Well, that was exactly how he talked to everyone.

“But…” I was about to say something when the teacher came in. So I just lowered my head and walked to my seat. Chinen did the same too. I watched him as he put the book under his drawer and sighed.

“Isn’t that bad?”

I turned to the voice. Yes, it was belonged to Fuka. I didn’t know why my luck was this bad. From the first year of high school, it was always Fuka whose seat was next to me.

Smirking, Fuka pointed her index finger to Chinen, “He’s holding the book right now. What if he…opens it and sees what you write in there? You were lucky just now but it wouldn’t be the same anymore once he found out about your SECRETS”

I looked away at once. I didn’t want to imagine that. If that really happens, it would be the end of my world. Because…in that book…were… Please don’t let him open the book, God. I begged silently inside my mind. During the whole lesson, I couldn’t help but to keep my eyes on Chinen. I was afraid. I was so afraid. I couldn’t stop imagining him opening the book and read what was inside.

But, thank God. He didn’t. The class finally ended after one and a half hour later. It was time for physical education now and one by one of my classmates left the class. I was waiting for the class to be emptied so that I could approach Chinen and take the book back from him. When everyone was already out of the class, I quickly stood up and approached Chinen who was still copying the notes from the whiteboard onto his book.

“Chinen-kun…c-can…can I…” I hate this. This always happened whenever I tried to talk to him. I always felt nervous.

“Wait…” he answered but was still focussing on the whiteboard. I just stood there quietly, waiting for him to finish his work. This was really an uncomfortable situation. Alone with Chinen in the class like this, I couldn’t help but to feel nervous. My heart was thumping madly inside my chest. Without realizing it, I was staring at him. His eyes, his nose, his lips, his hair…all looked so perfect to me. I found myself blushing and quickly looked away.

Honestly, I’ve been keeping this ‘feeling’ toward him. Yes, I loved this boy. It started around two years ago when I first stepping my feet into this school. That day was my first day in this school. I was from Miyagi and I just moved to Tokyo, so I didn’t know anyone. Ever since I was small, I was a shy type of girl who was really bad at making friends. So, on my first day, I was just wandering around the school alone, observing the people around me introducing themselves to each other.

I was sitting on the bench near the basketball court when a group of girls approached me so I quickly stood up and introduced myself because I thought they wanted to make friends with me and I was happy. But, I didn’t know when did it go wrong. One of them suddenly snatched my bag from me and threw it to the ground. The shocked me just stood there, motionless, looking at my stuffs that were now scattered on the ground. The girls laughed and started to step on my books and bag. One of them came to me and pulled my hair hard. I was scared that I didn’t know what to do. I just let my tears fell as they pushed me to the ground and they left me there with my dirty school uniform and injured knee.

I didn’t move. I cried, cried and cried. There were people there but they only giggled as they walked by. No one was willing to help me. That was when he came, holding out his hand to me. I stopped crying at once and took his hand. Ignoring the stares from the other students around us, he helped me to get on my feet again, gathered all my stuffs that were on the ground and put them back into my bag. Holding my bag, he looked at my injured knee.

“You are bleeding. The sick bay is on the first floor of the admin block” that was the first sentence he said to me. After placing my bag on the bench behind me, he then walked away.

And…before I knew it, I’ve already fallen in love with him.

We turned out to be in the same class and his name was Chinen Yuri. After that incident, I tried to talk to him again but I didn’t have the gut. So I just watched him from afar. Although it was like that, I felt happy. Just by watching him, seeing him everyday in class, bumping into him in the corridor, I felt so happy.

Now, let me share something with you guys. I…always wrote everything that I knew about him in a book. When I got back from school everyday, I would never forget to write in the book, about what he was doing that day, about what was he eating and stuffs. I compiled all things I got from watching him the whole day in A BOOK. Yeah, you guessed it right. It was ‘that book’. I knew I sounded like a crazy stalker. That was why no one else except me should read the content.

Fuka had known about this secret that I've been keeping to myself for years. I was sure that she would not keep quiet about it and tomorrow my secrets would already be spread throughout the whole school. But now, I didn't have time to think about her because that book was…in his hand and I needed to get it back into my hand as fast as possible.

I was too absorbed with the past that I almost jumped a bit when Chinen suddenly asked, “Kawashima, right?”

“Y-yes…” I answered shortly.

He had finished his work and now he was packing his pens and stuffed them into his pencil case. I just watched him quietly, blushing seeing him this close. He then put his hand into his drawer and my book came into sight. “Something is better being kept at home” he said as he eyed the cover of the book which sent shiver through out my whole body.

I was not sure if he was talking to me or to himself but I found myself replying him with a, “Eh?”

He stood up and turned to face me. There was not much difference on our height so his eyes were pretty much on the same level as mine and they were staring straight into mine. Somehow, they looked as cold as ice. I realized it ever since the day I first met him. He never smiled. Never once I saw him smiling, even when he was with his friends. And those eyes, they were always like that. Cold. Painful. Mysterious. There was still a lot I didn't know about him.

“This book is your diary, am I right?”

His question brought me back to my senses. How did he know!? Did he…did he open it? No. I kept my eyes on him for the whole period and he didn't even take it out from inside his drawer. Plus, he was focusing a hundred percent on the teacher the whole time.

“You’re disgusting”

%To Be Continued%