So embarrassing!

So here I am again today.

Today at school, everything started normal. But not until when I met Nao in the library. Still remember Nao? She is my classmate in Sociology and EAS class. One of my closest friends as well. I did mention about her in some of my entries long long time ago. Okay, now back to the story. As soon as she saw me, on her face was that annoying smile. Hahaha. She walked to me in a fast speed then whispered, "I READ YOUR BLOG"

YES. SHE READ MY BLOG. THIS BLOG.

Then I pulled her away from my other friends and went upstairs. She said to me, "You have a crush on *Ikki-san's real name*, right?" NOOOOO!!! She found out! Although in this blog, I always use 'IKKI-san' instead of his real name, Nao told me that it is still obvious. And she figured it out almost immediately. I'm so embarrassed. I mean, Nao is also in my EAS class!! She knows Ikki-san pretty well!

But well, I can trust Nao. I know. I'm sure she will not tell anyone about my crush toward Ikki-san. Nao have only read one entry in this blog but why!!? Why did she choose the one in which I mentioned about Ikki-san... Thankfully, it was Nao. I can trust her.

However, today during class, it was a little awkwarder than usual. Well, you see...before it was only Haru-chan that knew about my little secret but now Nao too... It feels weird... but I tried to ignore that weird awkward feeling.

In class, our lecturer told us to explain about our story plot that we gonna write to the class. And I was paired with Haru-chan (Well, who else? Everyone in the class knows that the both of us cannot be separated from each other). We were the second group to explain. I was so shaky! I'm not good at talking in front of lots of people. Especially in English. My writing is okay but when it comes to talking, I always become nervous and mess up my words. But still I had to do it. So, me and Haru-chan both stood up at our seats and started explaining our plot (that we actually stole from Vocaloid's Megurine Luka's music video).

Sitting right next to me on my right was Mat! And next to him was...yes, Ikki-san. I was so thankful to Mat when he took the seat next to me, instead of Ikki-san. Because if Ikki-san was the one sitting next to me, I would be more nervous and would mess up even more. I talked without looking at Ikki-san's way because I know he was...of course looking at me as I explained the plot. I could feel my knees melting as I felt his eyes on me. Man, no one can describe my feeling that time. 

But, I did it! I talked! Hahaha xD I messed up a few lines...but I did it! At least :) Ikki-san's group was the second last to explain their plot to everyone. I really enjoyed their explanation. Honestly, I didn't understand most of what they were saying because while explaining, they were trying really hard not to laugh and there were times they just suddenly burst out laughing. It was so funny! The whole class was full of laughter. Ikki-san laughed a lot today. I stared at him while it was his turn talking sound creepy, yes, but that was the only time for me to stare at him without being obvious that I like him (because everyone was also doing the same! Hahah. However, I could hear in my head Nao's voice, "Hahaha. Miki, I see what you are doing there...") Maybe yeah, Ikki-san is not that good looking but his smile, his laughter seems so pure. I was like, "He's an angel sent down to earth from the heaven" (Of course, I didn't say that out loud!)

The class ended at 1:30 but I told my father to pick me at 2 pm so I just wandered around the school with Haru-chan. When we were  heading back to the waiting area, we bumped into Ikki-san who was with his friend and Haru-chan asked me, "Do you think Ikki is gay?"

YES. GAY. SHE ASKED.

Hmm. I gave myself about 30 seconds to think and answered, "Yeah. Sometimes I do think he's gay" Then I explained some of the reasons why I'm thinking that way. And my reasons do make sense! Ikki-san and his friend was just right in front of us (a few meters away). And as we talked about it, his friend suddenly put his arm around Ikki-san's shoulder! Me and Haru-chan were like, "OMG..." hahaha xD Then we watched the two until they got into a car (YES, THE SAME CAR!)

But naaah, I know he's not gay. No way! I like him, okay...if he's really a gay, then kill me! = ='

Maa, I guess, that is all to talk about today.

PS: I wonder if there are people from my school that read this blog here. I hope no one except my close friends is reading this blog. Last night, I had this dream. In the dream, Ikki-san was actually reading everything that I put here ==' I hope that is not happening in real life. NO!