I wonder if he realizes...

For the past few days, Ikki-san has been sitting next to me in class. There was so many empty seats in the room and he chose to sit on the seat next to me. As a girl who really likes him, I'm so happy! Having him next to me makes me feel like in heaven. Yesterday, he even tried to take over Haru-chan's seat next to me but then, curse the aircond! ><! 

I'm a happy girl :) But, my heart just couldn't keep calm. It kept beating so fast for the one whole period. I hope he didn't hear my heart thumping madly inside my chest. Although the room is air-conditioned, I still felt...I don't know if the aircond wasn't working or was it just me?

I tried my best not to stare at him during the lesson! But I...I couldn't help it! And when I stared at him, he would suddenly turn to me and caught me staring at him! I turned away quickly! I shouldn't have done that because that makes it obvious that I like him.

Today, I came early to class. I looked at the empty seat on my right, then at the other empty seats in the room. Then I asked myself, "Will he sits next to me again today?" I felt so DOKI-DOKI! Then he came! I sit straight and tried to fix my eyes on the book I was holding. His footsteps came closer...closer...closer... then BAM! He put his stuffs on the desk and pulled the chair on my right! :D My heart raced but I was screaming happily inside! He sat on the seat next to me again today xD I know...I know... It is just a small matter but for me who really really like him, it is a BIG DEAL!

Before the lesson started, he took out his pencil and put it on the desk. It's pink! I was like, "Aww~ so cute" :3 Then suddenly, the pencil rolled to my side of the desk and he didn't seem to realize it. I was in panic! I was like, 'What should I do!? What should I do!? Should I just take it and put it back to his side?' Seconds passed as I tried to figure out what should I do. At that time, his back was on me so I picked up the pencil slowly and as slowly as quietly as possible, I placed it back on his side of the desk just on time when HE TURNED AROUND! Uh-uh... Then he said, "Ah, sorry. This is not my pencil though" smiled and took the pencil. (Aww, is he shy because it's pink? :3) Btw, my heart burst when he flashed that smile!

Throughout the lesson, he turned to me a lot and whispered to me. Well, he was just asking questions about the lesson though. There were also times when he turned to me just to smile (Or was it just my imagination? o.O It seemed real though). For the whole period, I tried my very best not to do anything that would embarrass me. I tried to act like I usually act but yeah, with him sitting there, acting natural is almost impossible! Having someone you like next to you for one hour! Well girls out there, you understand how I feel, right?

When the time was up, I sighed in relief. Finally, I can breathe normally... Ikki-san stood up and grabbed his stuffs. I tried not to look up! Really I tried! But my body just didn't want to follow my heart's instruction and looked up at him. He was looking at me with a smile on his face. And said, "Aku jalan dulu, k? (I'm leaving first, okay?)" His voice is so gentle... I smiled and bowed my head a little and he walked away. After that, what he just said registered in my mind and I silently KYAA-ed! 

Hmm, now that I think about it. Did I hear it right? I think he said, "Bulih jalan dah ka? (Can we leave now?)" Wait, man...whatever lah! But, what thing for sure, I'm so happy that I got to talk to him again today xD Hmm, will he sit on the seat next to me again tomorrow? :3

I think, the way I act around him make it obvious that I like him. I wonder if anyone notices that... 

I wonder...if he realizes...

- Miki Ariake