Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh!
Hei! It’s me again! Sorry, I think I will have to postpone the
Raya post again because in this post I am going to share with you guys (if
there is anyone reading) about something else.
Anyone here has ever heard of JENESYS? It stands for Japan East
Asia Network of Exchange for Students and Youths. I am sure a lot of people
have already familiar with the term JENESYS.
But I have only found out about it recently. Haha XD Azreena was
the one who mentioned it to me and then I made some research about it. I have
always dreaming of going to Japan
someday, so not wasting the chance, I applied for it. They were in need of two
more participants. Azy and Azreena also applied it with me. To be honest, even
before handing in the form, I was already like, “Nahhhh…. I don’t think they
are going to choose me. They will probably choose Azreena and Azy and I will of
course be left behind in Brunei”
So we handed in the form last week. And then, on Monday this
week, I received a call from the HEP office. I was required to go for an
interview for JENESYS on the next day! I was surprised! And it was on the next
day! I immediately asked Azy and Azreena but they said they didn’t receive any
call for the interview. It turned out I was the only want who got short listed
among the three of us. I feel bad for them because they are far more cheerful
and talkative than me and I am sure they would do better in the interview… But
HEP didn’t give them the chance for the interview. They wish me luck and told
to not let go of the chance given. But honestly I have no confidence at all. I
am seriously is no good when it comes to interview. I can’t talk.
So on the next day, I decided to come to uni early even though I
had no class that day and the interview would only start in the afternoon.
Jobless and blank, I walked around uni randomly. I wanted to go to the IHS
building… The Institute
of Health Science
building. It has become my favourite place since the start of this semester! :D
The new building so beautiful! I go there every time I have free time. I feel
like I can relax at there and I love the smell too. Okay, call me a weirdo. But
then everyone has their own favourite spot in school, right? For me, it is the
new IHS building :3 So, if I go missing and can’t be find anywhere in the
cafeteria, library, student centre or any other places… go to the IHS building,
you will find me there! HAHA! In shaa Allah… I have my own hiding place there…
It will still be hard to find that hiding place though :)
Ah!! What were we talking about? Oh ya! The JENESYS interview!
Haha XD While waiting for 1 pm, I met up with the Tenacities; Jirah, Ain,
Azreena and Kawi, and we had lunch together. I didn’t eat because I was so
nervous that I didn’t have the mood to swallow anything. The cafeteria was so
crowded!! And noisy. I hate crowded place.
About 15 mins before the supposed time for the interview, I left
the cafeteria and headed to HEP meeting room but I didn’t where it is! HAHA XD
While looking for the meeting room, I bumped into three girls. Seniors, I
guess. They asked me, “Do you want to join PKT?”
PKT stands for ‘Platun Kadet Tentera’ … errr… Army cadet… yeah,
something like that. I don’t know what happened, but I ended up signing up for
the club! PKT! Seriously, I have no idea what exactly happened. I bumped into
the three girls; they asked me if I want to join PKT… and the next thing I know
I was writing down my name on the registration paper!
I only realized it after I went back to HEP. I was like, “OHMY!
DID I JUST SIGN UP FOR PKT!?”
…
…
…
So yeah…
ANYWAY! The interview! It was hard! I couldn’t answer most of
the questions they asked. They asked me about how would I stop social media
issues in Brunei…
I don’t know! So I just said out whatever that came up on my mind and most of
them are nonsense. So yeah…, that is about the interview; my very first
interview. It was a disaster. But it was a good experience! Even though it was
terrible, it made me feel a bit of confidence in me. I mean, I didn’t manage to
answer their questions…but I talked! And I smiled!
Oh the result? It was released yesterday. I didn’t get it! :)
I’m already expected that so I am okay. My friend got it – my new friend
actually. We talked while waiting to be called for the interview. I am happy
for her and she promised that she will buy a big poster of JUMP if she saw one
while in Japan…
FOR ME!
Good luck, Riley! :D and congrats!
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…
…
And… I told my friend that I registered for PKT. They were…of
course, surprised. They called me crazy and stuffs *laughs* I am crazy, I
guess. And then, there is this one friend. When I told her about me joining
PKT, she said, “It is okay! You were once in PKBN. And also Lestari. You are
strong! PKT is where you belong!”
The thing is… I don’t think so I am strong. Yes, I was in PKBN
but that was long time ago! It was over a year ago! And and and! I am not fit
at all! I haven’t been running – or jog – for a long time. Honestly, I don’t
think I can do it. I have no confidence that I would be able bear with it. I am
weak. I know. Because this is my body. So I know.
That night I received a news saying that the first session would
be held on the next day (which was yesterday) and of course I had to attend it.
No? I thought so hard…
There must be a reason why…
There must be a reason why Allah arranged this for me. Well you
see, I didn’t plan this thing at all. I never thought of joining PKT… oh wait,
I did consider of joining it but… Why didn’t I sign up that time? I don’t know…
So yeah… there must be a reason for what happened. Maybe, just maybe, something
is waiting for me there… right? Something that will change me or my life
forever…. Well, we don’t know for sure yet. So I decided to attend the first
session.
However, yesterday, when I woke up in the morning, I started
thinking again. I realized I know no one who is also joining PKT. “I will be
all alone” I thought to myself. I know Jim is joining but I am not that close
to him… I nearly decided to just stay at home…
But then, I received a text on Whatsapp. It was Nabil. From
Hyperion. Yep, the AJK Nabil. I guess he got my phone number from the PKT group
chat I am added in. He said, “See you later” and just like that, I felt better!
I am not alone.
So, I went to the place where we were told to gather, wearing
red and black; the dress code. When I arrived at CH, a lot of them were already
waiting there. I sat next to this one girl, awkwardly. Yep, as usual, I am
always awkward with new people. Thank God she started the conversation. She
introduced herself and I introduced myself. Alhamdulillah, there you go, my
first friend in PKT. Soon after that, a familiar looking girl arrived. She
looked at like she knows me and I did feel like I know her too. When I told her
my name, she went, “We are in the same class! Japanese! I’m Sofia Hahaha don’t
you remember?”
OH!! I remember! Hahaha XD
I thought, “So far so good”
Then we received an order to move to the parking lot.
Immediately, we headed there and quickly they told us to assemble. We just
followed the instruction and…then they took our attendance and then…we were
ready to set off. Oh, I didn’t tell you? We went to Rimba Camp yesterday for a
briefing and our first session. The place is not that far from uni so we
carpooled. In the car, again we started introducing each other :)
“So far so good”
Arrived there, we started marching and headed to a classroom! :D
Being at there brings back a lot of PKBN memories. It is the same place where
we had our shooting exam and stuffs. Ah, I miss PKBN. The briefing took about
an hour. It wasn’t only UBD students but also students from other IPT. I kept
looking around to see if the 2nd trip from UBD had arrived because
Nabil was supposed to be in that trip because he wasn’t in the first one.
After the briefing we assembled outside and…hmm, to make story
short, we were told to run around the field. Everyone was so fast that I was
left behind. DAMN. I have lost that stamina -_- Embarrassing, very, especially
when I was in PKBN before. I need to start working out again. Seriously, what
have I been doing? T^T I wasted my three months of semester break sleeping,
eating, playing as my routine. Kuso.
We did some PT10 exercise… We were also got doubled 10 x press
support. Hahaha XD More memories from PKBN came back. I miss doing this stuffs,
but I am not fit anymore *again cries*
One of the girls fainted... I guess she didn’t eat lunch or
drink enough water… :( I had no lunch too. Honestly, before we were dismissed,
my vision became yellow-ish and black-ish… I couldn’t hear well too… I felt my
body was getting weaker… I was sure I was going to faint right there. But I
fought it.
“I am not going to embarrass myself more by fainting here… not
on the first session…” I thought to myself. And thank Allah, soon after that,
my vision went back to normal and I felt better.
In the car, on our way back to uni, I finally got the chance to
check my phone. Hahaha… Nabil’s class ended late and he didn’t manage to catch
the second trip, so he was left behind in uni. Aiyaa. Hahaha. Poor him…
Hopefully he will be able to attend the next session.
Back in uni, we took a group photo; our first group photo
together :)
Alhamdulillah, with that, we were dismissed. I was so tired that
I slept in the car on the way home :D But I didn’t regret signing up for PKT.
The first session was tiring but it was fun!! And I am sure the coming sessions
will be a lot more fun. In shaa Allah, I can do this. I will try my best and I
am not giving up, definitely.
So I talked with Pe about how I just wrote down my name on the
registration paper without taking even a minute to think. She got the same idea
as me. She said, everything happens for a reason and for sure, Allah has
something for me. That is true :) And then she said, “Who knows maybe you will
meet your soulmate in PKT. Jodoh di PKT” LOL. Funny Pe, as usual.
TODAY, I finished class at 12 pm, after having a simple lunch at
Giant; I followed Azy to her house. The plan was to have a rest at her house
and then going for a jog at Damuan park around 5:30 pm. But then, at around 3
pm, I received a text from PKT group chat. LOL!
It says, “Those who interested in joining the shooting training
tomorrow, please come to the office RIGHT NOW to get the uniform… blab la bla”
Yeah, it says, “RIGHT NOW. First comes first serves basis”
I was panicking! I want to join it so bad but I was at Azy’s
house at that time. However, Azy is really nice that she was willing to drive
me back to uni and in the end; I managed to get there on time and yay!! I got
the uniform. Alhamdulillah. So I will be joining the training tomorrow!
However, I have one more problem… but nevermind.
ANYWAY! On my way to the office to get the uniform, I bumped
into two of the tenacities. I went to say hi and then one of them suddenly
said, “I saw (insert Ikki-san’s real name here) just now”
Having heard Ikki-san’s name… my heart almost jumped out of the
rib cage. “Where?”
“At the student centre, with his friend”
I was tempted to run to student centre right away but then I had
to get the uniform fast, so I ignored my heart and followed the whisper I heard
inside my mind. And now, somehow, I am regretting it. It was a chance and I let
it slipped by just like that.
Ikki-san…
When are you going to return that half of my heart to me? I am
tired. I need to move on… *sigh*
Ah, okay! I gotta sleep. It is late already. I have to wake up
VERY early tomorrow -_-
Oyasuminasai.
Assalamu’alaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh.
PS: Just ignore any spelling or grammar mistake. I am too lazy
to check.
